Notes

I feel mentally better not going to lie he was here that for some reason. I had a panic attack I don't know why because I was stressed. And it made me scared like it was like all new to me. The last panic attack I had was like in July 29 when I saw my ex for the first time. And it so weird that first person that I didn't love with all my heart was the person I did not want to lose. But like it the new feeling like I am scared I always ask myself what keeping me alive here like sometimes I do want to die. Like I was supposed to be dead when I was like 5 why Am still here on this earth. But you know there is reason I still on this earth. even through you don't know it that you will be an important chapter. In my life but that ok because one day that will actually happen, I have feeling that is going to happen. Thank you for making me happy for those 3 years I Know you hurt, and I was in pain, but I was also in love with you. But you were not my one regret in this lifetime. Because I love you with all my heart and caesious you. But Luis thank you for making her happy. You couldn't love her forever but thank you for making my inner child wish come true being in love with someone and having that special person in her life. You were lesson that I learn but I am grateful that it happened because you brought a lot of pain and a lot of memories that you came with. They can't always be happy ending in the end. But at least it was a chapter that happen and that you made believe that love was real. <3