Notes

Today was chill. Shit got dramatic to be honest. Kyle pissed a bunch of people off. Jake told Mr Holmes that Kayleigh was going to jump Kyle. They're both pussies, Kyle and Jake. They need to seriously get a grip. Kyle's constantly hitting on Max. I'm not sure if he's flirting with me anymore but yeah. Anyway. I don't know anymore! Harley is cool. As I said to D'arcy, I don't want a committed relationship in college. I want to focus on my studies and maybe fool around a bit. It'd be no fun with Harley. She's asexual. I don't think I'm asexual anymore honestly. The more I think about it the less asexual I am lmao. I want to live life to the fullest. I want to experience as much as possible. Within reason obviously. There are some things that I cross the line at. I'm not willing to do time, so that's one thing. Just my luck, half the things I want to do are illegal. I love life. There's so much shit that people can do and not even give a crap. I really just want to stop giving a shit. I want to change my style up and change my whole personality. I want to be a complete bitch. Don't really have the guts for it though. I wish I could reset. I'd pick a whole different way of life. I want to fuck someone honestly. It seems like fun. I'm definitely going to wait until I'm at least 16 though. I'm not getting done for doing it underage. Alcohol and vaping, yeah, but not something as big as that. Should I break it off with Harley? I know we aren't gonna make it past prom with our relationship. I think it's pretty shitty to break up with someone after a dance. Especially now. I've dived too goddamn deep. It's going to crush her if I break up with her. I'm a fucking dick. I know. When I do end up doing it, I'm just going to be straight up. I'm not going to piss about. Not like the last 2 times. This relationship actually means something I guess. It's not like anyone actually gives a shit though. It's life. We all go through the same shit. Different times, different people, same crap. It's fun. Not knowing what to do. Well, got nothing else to say. bye.