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chris for 1 whole year and a little more i have been as happy as can be. you are literally my best friend and i come to you with anything. literally anything...i do not see myself talking to any other guy like that. you mean the world to me. I am trying so hard to earn you back rn cause i need you in my life. for the last year i have tried my hardest to make you as happy as you could possibly whether it be sex or just love i know i have the capability of making you happy or making you laugh. I dont think you could find any other girl at school or anywhere who would love you and care for you as much as i do. even though things are hard rn...those times are gonna happen and it wont be easy but we have gotten through them before and i know we can again. i will try my best as your girlfriend to make you as happy as possible. sometimes there will be things that i wont want to do even though i love you a lot so sorry in advance for that but i could do other things as well. i will make jokes i will tell you gossip i will lift your spirits i will send you nudes i will send you vids i will try to take it in the ass even though ive tried a time too many i will try to do what i can to hang out with you i will try to go as deep as i can i will try to put on a happy face and stay in a good mood for you i will try to swallow..whatever it may be i will try my absolute hardest to make you happy with me. i dont want to see anymore days that i have to call you my ex because i have seen and experienced enough of those. i dont want to just talk to you as a friend anymore. i did that over the summer a while ago and i could not wait till the day you asked me out. i will tell you all my secrets because i know they are safe with you. i will talk dirty to you i will do what it takes to keep you happy. i dont want to see a 7th of the month and not text you to tell you happy anniversary...the 7th has always been a happy and special day for me and i hope it can continue like that. even though relationships arent perfect and there will be times where one of us arent happy, we can always get through it together. this year has been amazing with you i cant even explain and now its 2016 and its your big year. youre turning 18 and youre graduating and i want to be a big part in it because i care about you so much. 2014 lauren is nowhere as close to 2016 me. you have made me more confident you have put endless smiles on my face even though sometimes you dont look at the right time to see you have put tears in my eyes..both happy and sad but thats okay and you have made so many memories with me i cant let them end. even though you can argue with this..im gonna tell you rn you have changed my life. youve taught me so many important lessons in life. youve been so tolerant with me. you have taught me everything about sex.. like everything. and it kills me to see you upset or sad or angry cause i know something went wrong on my part.