Notes

As much as i love them I'm exhausted, they are so broken it's so hard to love them without being tired. you know how you wanna heal them and make them feel better? that's what I wanna do for them but I can't I'm so tired and broken it's hard to love a broken heart when you're also broken and tired. I try my best, I really do but it's just so exhausting to handle sometimes, will I ever leave them? no, I couldn't. but will i keep trying to make them feel alive and better again? yes. that's what I wanna do, I wanna make them smile, make them feel more alive in a way I cannot express and or explain. I could never fix a broken heart like theirs, but I can definitely try my best and spend my time with them before it ends horribly. I wanna be there for them for as long as I can. I really do, but it's hard. like I said, but hey, I'm gonna love them forever even if its tiring, exhausting, trying to fill the void. because... they make me feel like home, and if they make me feel like at home then i wanna be with them forever. EVEN if we have our ups and downs which we will, no doubt about it. as much as I want to prevent it as much as possible, that won't happen. i will forever be protecting them from the negativity even if it tires me out, them loving me gives me the energy I lost to love them to love them even more, and bigger. I haven't felt this good with someone in so long I don't want it to be gone, their touch, their smell (which btw they smell amazing.), their love, their positive energy they give me, they give me the fuel i need in life and even if it gets exhausted we can get it through it together even if that means we have to go through hell and back. I for one will forever love them even if it means losing other friends, family or close ones. they are the one I crave that I need the most, the most memories i wanna share with them forever, they are the one I wanna have sleepless nights with even on school nights. Oh, I'd do anything to take away the pain he feels even if I have to feel it, because I wanna be the one they love the most, the one I can love even if I can't love anymore because they... are the one i wanna spend my whole life with even if all a have is them and I wasn't allowed to be with anyone else. id still choose them at the end of the day. no matter how hard our love gets i still will always choose them to love the most. I love him.