Notes

hello my name is evan today i am taking notes on my opinions and thoughts, my mind is blank a vast waste land of empty ideas and thoughts i think of so much and nothing at the same time. Never ending cycle of questions flow through my cells which i either push away or ponder on for the next 4 hours of my life. i wonder if other people feel the same way. I feel its enevitable that everyone experiences these kinds of emotions but people prove me wrong day in and day out. its like how history repeats itself but with our actions and emotions. We repeat the same problems without thinking on them, we dont learn from our mistakes and if we do it takes years. Why. its not hard. that trade didnt go good well maybe we see why instead of ignoring the facts infront of your eyes, that person doesnt like you, well i wonder if theres a reason for that. My neighbors hate me? maybe its because im the asshole who throws weekday parties everyother night when they have to work at 6am in the morning and are trying to save money for there kids college funds which only seem to be going up day by day. oh idk maybe i should think before i repeat my same line of thinking day in and day out. man my english book is depressing, i know its an important subject to learn but i find myself wondering if there was a book we could have read that was more educational and less depressing. well thats all i got. oh ya cloud atlas.