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your my boy and no matter what, you will always be my boy. i see a future with you and ive never seen a future w anyone else before. i understand im a lot to maintain, keep under control and deal with. after our conversation earlier, the first thing i did was sit in my shower and cry. The second i got out, sat on the ledge of my bath and did some more crying. I cried for over an hour. scared that you were officially ready to give up on me and just leave. I dont even want you to give up on me. I was you to care about what im doing, how i am, where im going etc. I love when you care. and im sorry to bring it up again but no one listens to me otherwise. i really need for you to care for me and look after me a it more for the next 2 weeks. apparently starting this medication itll make me 10x worse for the furst 2 weeks. Like suicidal thoughts, thoughts of self harming. jacob im vrying out for help and i need you right now im having literally the worse week of my life.