Notes

Maybe you won't ever see this message. But I guess I don't care about that. I don't care if you're reading this, or the one who is suddenly so interested in hurting me. You're both the same person and that's a fact. Last time I spoke to menna I had a fight with her because of you. because of my love for you. because I don't wanna move on. because I don't wanna be in love with somebody else. because you complete me soul somehow. No matter how much you try to hurt me. No matter how stupid you act. I just can't hate you. And I did not want to move on you. But today you really surprised me.
You got him between us ya Muhammed. The one who hated us the day we started because of how jealous he was. And you know it. You have your mind up to him. You did the only thing I swore to people you Will never do. I swore to memo w menna w kol wa7d kan shayef enak timedbomb.. That you will never let him insult me or insult me mn asaso. What did you get of that after all? Are you pleased now? Who are you? What have I ever done to you? loved you? It wasn't my fucking choice. AND YOU FUCKIN LOVED ME TOO. NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU FUCKIN DENY IT AND TRY TO PROVE ME THAT YOU DIDNT YOU JUST CANT BECAUSE I FELT IT MILLIONS OF TIME. YOU'RE CAPABLE OF LOVE AND YOU DID FALL IN LOVE WITH ME BUT YOU WERE SO STUPID TO STAY MY FUCKIN GUARDIAN ANGEL BECAUSE WHY ON EARTH BE A GOOD MEMORY IN MY FUCKIN PAST NO YOU HAVDE TO DESTROY EVERYTHING AND CALL ME WITH EVERY SINGLE WORD NO BODY HAVE EVER CALLED ME BUT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! YOU MADE ME REGRET KNOWING YOU CONGRATULATIONS. I FAILED IN KEEPING YOU AS A GOOD MEMORY. IM DONE TRYING. IM DONE WITH YOU BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS HURT ME AND I CANT HURT YOU BACK. I WISH IF I COULD ERASE YOU FROM MY MEMORY. FOREVER. STOP HURTING ME. REMEMBER ME. REMEMBER US. PLEASE. AND STOP DOING THIS TO US. I DONT DESERVE THIS FROM YOU. I PROMISED MY GOD THAT I WILL MOVE ON YOU AGAIN AND THIS TIME YOU REALLY GIVE ME A PUSH ON TO DO IT. BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO HOLD ON TO. I HAVE TO MOVE ON. EVEN IF YOU KEPT HURTING ME. I HAVE TO MOVE ON. IM FINALLY DONE THANKS TO YOU. DONE WITH RELATIONSHIPS AS WELL.. I DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I SAY. SHOULD I TELL YOU THAT WHAT EVER YOU DID OR GONNA DO IS SO WRONG AND AINT GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER AFTER A WHILE? I CANT EVEN SPEAK TO YOU. OR MAKE YOU GET ME. THIS IS ALL USELESS... IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU. AND IM DONE DREAMING OF YOU EVERYDAY FOR TWO MONTHS AND THIRTEEN DAYS. IM DONE CALLING FROM SUCH STUPID RANDOM NUMBERS TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AND KNOW YOU'RE STILL ALIVE. YOU MADE ME REALIZE HOW STUPID I AM. AND HOW I MADE YOU USE THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU IN SUCH A DISGUSTING WAY. BUT I WONE REDO IT. I WONT. THANK YOU. BYE BYE.