Notes

Nobody talks about that one person in your life with no tag whatsoever. They are everything and nothing at the same time. You know having someone in your life forever is just the rarest thing. But you are okay with whatever time you have with them because its just that beautiful. You do not know how that person just came into your life when you weren't expecting anyone. They hove changed you in places you did not even know you need change. They are the most rude and blunt motherfuckers of this entire planet all the damn time, but those 2/10 times when they show their soft side is to die for. They are the ones you'd be on call with for hours and hours with nothing to talk about, you'd both just be there doing your own shit carrying your phone with you because you love having someone there with you all the time. they would understand you in the best way possible. They would scold you to sleep, work, eat and take care of yourself. They would know you don't sleep after saying goodbye, instead you use your phone. So they'd tell you to sleep on call and you do. Listening to them singing the worst they can, you'll sleep. They'd tell you sister over call to not wake you up because they know you haven't been sleeping property lately. They'd know when you haven't slept even thought you've been the quietest. When they realise you've fallen asleep, they'd say "goodnight, baby". They wont do anything without you and you cant anything without them. You'd tell them everything, the most irrelevant piece of information to ever exist on this planet and they'd listen to it like it's the most important one. There never has been a time in your entire relationship when you felt like its all about you or its all about them because its always about both of you. They'd call you on your shit and do not think once before doing it. You are the best version of yourself right now only and only because of them. But you'd also never admit it because you don't have that relationship with them. You have never once admitted how much they mean to you, at least not completely. Conversation with them are just so easy, it comes so naturally.
They'd call you at every point of every day and keep it going because you know you cont. They'd call you while eating, sleeping, drinking, going out, getting back, showering, peeing, pooping, singing, dancing and every other minor activity. Because you just have so much to talk about.
Because everything that you experience, feel or see, they know about it. They feel it with you, they see it with you and they experience it with you, All of it. Its so weird how you can have such a clingy relationship with someone and know that one day you might fall apart but that day isn't today and whenever it is, you know you would not have any hard feelings for each other. That you would always cherish the time together because there is nothing more interesting you've ever had in your life. they would stay up with you, sleep with you, work with you, do everything with you to keep you company. So that you don't have to do it alone. You'd call them crying and they'd laugh at you only because its that funny and no one else could ever understand it, but it IS that funny. Then they'd control their laughter to calm you down. Its been 15 minutes and they are late for their class, well later than usual anyway, and they'd still be on call. They would sometimes make you the maddest you've ever been by being the most annoying person to ever exist on this entire planet, no universe.
To justify any task they do, they'd simply just say "because I'm me*. Nobody and I mean nobody in this entire universe understand your relationship dynamic but well its lowkey the best kind. Oh speaking of lowkey, they are also the kind of person who'd never really appreciate you properly, or say that they love you or miss you or like anything. But what they'll do is, say " I lowkey missed you'
*I lowkey like spending time with you*
Its so weird like so so so weird. stuff suitable enough. So you just call them priyal. Fall in love with the boy who stays up all night to talk to you. Fall in love with the boy who calls you beautiful, not hot. Fall in love with the boy who holds your hand when you're nervous. Fall in love with the boy who watches your favorite movie even if he hates it. Fall in love with the boy who walks you to the door. Fall in love with the boy who tells you to text him when you get home so he knows you're safe. Fall in love with the boy who supports you fully. Fall in love with the boy who will dance with you in the car to your favorite music. Fall in love with the boy who asks you how you are and checks up on you. Fall in love with the boy who likes you without makeup on. Fall in love with the boy who would do anything to see you. Fall in love with the boy who sends you good morning and goodnight texts. Fall in love with the boy who wants to see you happy and smiling. Fall in love with the boy who cuddles you when you're cold. Fall in love with the boy who is willing to take a saturday for you. Fall in love with the boy who doesn't act different with you around his friends. Fall in love with the boy who falls asleep with you and doesn't move until you wake up. Fall in love with the boy who doesn't blame you for his issues. Fall in love with the boy who saves pictures of you smiling. Fall in love with the boy who shows you off to everyone. Fall in love with the boy who's mom loves you just as much as he does. Fall in love with someone who makes you happy. I still remember the day when we first met. I still remember our first conversation that made me feel better. I still remember how your words made me smile unknowingly and made me feel I'm alive I still can feel things I still can love and be loved. You made me feel a lot better, you made me alive again and in end I started loving you.
Unexpectedly I met you and unexpectedly you helped me to heal. I met you unexpectedly but you changed me completely for good, you become a reason for me to feel better, to be the cheerful one like before, I started loving you forgetting every betrayal hurt from past.. you became my main reason to not to give up on life and I end up loving you. I don't regret meeting you and I won't ever as you helped me when no one was there, you helped me in healing my deepest wounds, you helped me to feel things again like a alive human does.
And in end I got hurted once again by you... you never wanted to hurt me but you did unknowingly.... guess it's not your fault it's mine that I still have feelings for you even after 3 years. and it's all one sided now... maybe I was temporary for you but you. I will fight for you but I will never beg or compete for you. I am aware that you have options, I absolutely know that, it should be your priority to prove to me that I have your undivided attention and that you are not entertaining anyone else. Instead you have me feeling like an option. I know, I have to fight for you. I know, I have to prove myself worthy of being yours because you genuinely deserve that. But I'll be damned if 1 am doing all that I can and going all out for you while you're dedicating time to someone else. Just like you know your worth I absolutely know mine as well. Let me tell you you're not the only one with options. If you're in my life it's not because I need you but because I want you in my life, that's the difference. What I need is to have that reciprocated because if I don't I'm fine by myself.
I'll fight for you but I won't beg for you.