Notes

idk why its so hard for me to talk to people. i dont know if its cause i dont like them or if its cause i am scared of them. i mean, i like talking to people because sometimes it is fun to engage in a conversation with a random. but sometimes it is very hard, even when i dont want it to be. somedays its earier and i enjoy those days, but some days its a lot harder and i dont enjoy those days whatsoever. people can be nice, and people can be rude but either way most experiences are good. still, on a good day if im with someone it becomes harder to talk because i have someone there to talk for me, or at least thats how i see it because i grew up having someone talking for me. i know its probably not good that that happened growing up but its what im used to. now when i talk to someone by myslef, i can strike up a conversation about anything as long as i feel comfortable around the person, or so i think.