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I HAVE LOTS OF THOUGHTS COMING TO MY MIND RIGHT NOW. BIDHAN RUMBA AND THOSE MESSAGES I SENT HIM.DR MAHENDRA THAPA AND HIS POSTED PICTURES ON FACEBOOK.SHANTA SIS FROM SUBHAM LIBRARY. AND I AM LISTENING TO MUSIC RIGHT NOW AS WELL.
I HAVE SARALA ADHIKARI,PUKAR DEEP ADHIKARI,BIDHAN RUMBA AND LOKENDRA ON MY MIND.I SAW GATHERINGS OF ALL FOUR OF US WITH BREESTY AND DAMODHAR AS WELL IN PUKAR'S FINAL DESTINATION FOR ABROAD VISIT IN THE FUTURE. I SAW BIDHAN GETTING CLOSER TO SARALA AS ALWAYS AND THEY TWO MUTUALLY ACCEPTED EACH OTHER AS ALWAYS AND I WATCHED THEM GROW BIGGER TOGETHER AS A MORE THAN FRIENDS AND CLOSEST BROTHER AND SISTER LIKE WITH PUKAR I GUESS THAT IS WHAT BIDHAN ALWAYS WANTED AS SOON AS THEY SAW THEM THAT IS PUKAR AND SARALA. I HAD IN MY MIND THAT WHY DID I HAD TO WRITE BACK WHEN WE DIDN'T EVEN TALK AT ALL. MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE CLEAR THAT HE DOES NEED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT MARRIAGE AND RELATIONSHIPS AND WORRY ABOUT ME. AFTER ALL, HE WANTS TO BE A RESPONSIBLE GUY IN EVERY WAY.I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA AND SARALA ADHIKARI ON MY MIND.I SAW IT WAS TIHAR AND THERE WERE RESPONSIBILITIES ABOUT FESTIVALS FOR ME CAUSE THEY WERE SO MUCH INTO ME BEING FROM A NEWAR FAMILY AND WANTED FOOD FACILITY TO THEM FROM TIME TO TIME THROUGH GATHERINGS BUT FOR OTHERS IT WAS AN OBLIGATION BECAUSE OF WHICH THEY LOOKED YOUNGER, HAPPIER AND ZEALFUL TOWARDS THEIR CURRIER AND FUTURE. THEY WERE SARALA ADHIKARI AND BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND AROUND TIME OF FESTIVALS. I HAD FOOD CRAVINGS, I ATE CURD WITH BANANA AND CHOCOLATE BISCUIT. I DRANK TWO CUPS OF GREEN TEE ALREADY. AND MADE MYSELF A THIRD ONE. I HAD DR. SUMIKO PRADHAN, DR USHA KAYASTHA AND DR MAHENDRA THAPA ON MY MIND.ANEESH MALLA CAME TO MY MIND AS WELL. I FOUND HIM THROUGH FACEBOOK. HE IS THE ELDER BROTHER OF A SENIOR FROM COLLEGE WHOSE HOME IS NEAR MY HOMETOWN. I HAVE BHRAMI SHAH ON MY MIND. SHE WAS THEIR BATCH MATE. LILY MISS AND TREJILA MULEPATI ARE ON MY MIND. I JUST LOGGED OUT OF FACEBOOK TO STUDY. I HAD ARYA SHAKYA ON MY MIND ABOUT HAVING THOUGHTS OF GOING TO A FRIEND'S HOUSE AND TALKING THE WHOLE DAY AND SPENDING TIME. I TALKED TO DR MAHENDRA ON FACEBOOK MESSENGER. I FEEL LIKE I AM HAVING NAUSEA AND I NEED TO GO TO FLUSH OUT MYSELF. I ATE TWO JERRY FAST FOOD AND A PACKET OF JUNK. MY STOMACH IS SO BULGED OUT BECAUSE OF JUNK FOOD. FACEBOOK IS ALL ON MY MIND AND I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND JUST A WHILE AGO AS WELL. I FELT SO SCARED TO WALK OUTSIDE IN THE AFTERNOON TODAY. MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE I AM NOWHERE IN LIFE AND I AM NOT DOING GOOD TO MY BODY I AM ONLY EATING HEAVY JUNK AND DAMAGING MY BRAIN WITH NO STUDY AND LAZINESS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHETHER JOIN THE LIBRARY FROM TOMORROW OR STAY AT HOME AND DO SOME HOMEWORK. I CAN'T DECIDE YET. DAMODHAR TIMILSINA MESSAGED ME TODAY. SEEMS LIKE HE IS GOING THROUGH A LOT WITH HIS STUDIES AND I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND AGAIN. ALL I CAN SAY IS DAMODHAR TIMILSINA REMEMBERED ME. I BRAIN-DAMAGED MYSELF AGAIN TODAY WITH JUNK. IT IS WORSE THAN NOT EATING ANYTHING. I BLOATED MY STOMACH. I MESSAGED DR. MAHENDRA AGAIN ABOUT SEEING A GUY LIKE DR. AYUSH LAMICHANNE AT CHETTRAPATI WHILE COMING BACK FROM THE STORE. I STILL HAVE BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND. I HAVE SURELY SPENT A LOT OF TIME WITH SUCH AN INTELLIGENT AND BRAINY GUY WHO DISCUSSES IDEAS AND PLANS FOR THE FUTURE. I HAD SARALA ADHIKARII,BIDHAN RUMBA AND DR. MAHENDRA THAPA ON MY MIND AGAIN.I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I SPENT MY 20S DOING NOTHING. NOT CLEANING THE ROOM, NOT COOKING, NOT WASHING CLOTHES, NOT PRAYING, NOT MAKING FRIENDS, NOT STUDYING, AND NOT EARNING UNLIKE ALL THE 20S CHILDREN AND THIRTY PEOPLE I MET RECENTLY AROUND MY TIME AT SUBHAM LIBRARY WITH VARIETY OF FIELD PEOPLE. NOW EVEN ER. DRISTY IS ON MY MIND. WHILE I WAS WORKING IN THE KITCHEN BIDHAN RUMBA WAS ON MY MIND ALMOST ALL THE TIME. I AM VERY BLUE. TODAY MY DAY STARTED BLUE. I HAD HALF A BLUE DAY, KIND OF A BLUE DAY. I HAVE EATEN A LOT OF JUNK TODAY. I THINK I WILL GAIN WEIGHT BY TOMORROW MORNING CAUSE I HAVE NOT DONE ANY EXERCISE FOR A WHOLE DAY LIKE I ATE THE WHOLE DAY. DAMODHAR TIMILSINA REACTED TO MY MESSAGE JUST A WHILE AGO. I GOT SOME TIME OUT FOR SURE. BIDHAN RUMBA, SARALA ADHIKARI,PUKAR DEEP ADHIKARI WERE ON MY MIND.I WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH SARALA ADHIKARI SAID SHE HAD STUDIED AND HOW SHE IS GOOD WITH EVERYONE AND TRIES HER BEST TO KEEP AHEAD OF HER ELDER SISTER AND BE GOOD FOR HER FAMILY AND SO IS THE SAME WITH BIDHAN RUMBA. HE CARES ABOUT PEOPLE WHO ARE BETTER-MINDED AND KNOWS THEY ARE BETTER AND SO DOES PUKAR DEEP ADHIKARI HIS VALUES, INTERESTS, HIS HOBBIES, USES HIS BRAIN AND THINKS OF FAMILY AND THE FUTURE AND EVERYBODY I MET IS DOING SO AS WELL.

I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA AND SARALA ADHIKARI IN MY MIND EARLY MORNING AND I GOT TO KNOW THAT BIDHAN RUMBA HAD LEFT THE GROUP CHAT AS WELL YESTERDAY I GUESS. I HAD A BAD FIGHT WITH MOM YESTERDAY NIGHT AND IT LASTED AS A BAD SIDE EFFECT OF NOT BEING ABLE TO WAKE UP ON TIME EARLY IN THE MORNING. I COULD GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES BECAUSE OF THAT. EVERYTHING OVER AND OUT AND FINE NOW. ALL THINGS ARE BACK TO SETTLEMENT WITH NORMALITY. I AM LISTENING TO MUSIC AND EATING BREAKFAST RIGHT NOW. I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND BEFORE THEN DR MAHENDRA THAPA AND I WATCHED THE NUN AND HOW I LOST MY MOBILE FOR SOME MOMENTS WAS ON MY MIND. I HAVE HARD TIME TO STUDY. WHY IS THAT? I WAS DREAMING ABOUT LIVING IN THE MOUNTAINS WITH BOYS FROM CTGU. THEY WERE DR. MAHENDRA THAPA, DR. AYUSH LAMICHANE, AND DR. VIKRANT BHATT.LOL! I ALSO SAW MYSELF BEING AN OLD WOMAN LOL! I AGAIN HAVE BIDHAN RUMBA AND SARALA ADHIKARI ON MY MIND.I SAW MYSELF IN THE LIBRARY AND THEY WERE COMING TO THE LIBRARY AGAIN. I SAW THEM GET CLOSE WITHOUT ME ANYWAY I AM NOT EVEN NEEDED ANYWHERE IN THE TOPIC. BIDHAN RUMBA TALKS ABOUT THE SAME THING TO EVERYONE AND EASES HIMSELF. THAT A GOOD HEALTHY WAY. I HAVE GARBAGE IN MY MIND. NONSENSES AS WELL AS NAILS, TONGUE LOL! TODAY THERE IS A LOT OF CLEANING TO DO. SINCE YESTERDAY THE WORK WAS PILLED UP TO DO BUT I AM STILL HERE DOING NOTHING, JUST LISTENING TO MUSIC AND TYPING NOT EVEN STUDYING. SHOULD I BE THANKFUL OR WHAT SHOULD I BE DOING? LOL!! MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE THE UNIVERSITY COMMUNITY PRESSURE ON ME TO STUDY. THAT MUST BE THE REASON BEHIND MY LACKING OF STUDIES. MAYBE OR MAYBE NOT OR MAYBE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO RELAX MYSELF AND SPECIALLY MY MIND LIKE OTHERS DO EXAMPLES LIKE GUYS LIKE BIDHAN RUMBA WHO SAID THEY HAVE MADE THEMSELF LIKE THAT SUCCESSFUL EARNING PERSON. I MET ALL SETTLED PEOPLE AND GROWING ENTHUSIASTICS. I AM SO TALKATIVE PERSON SO THAT IS WHY I AM WRITING EVERYTHING THAT COMES INTO MY MIND. I HAVE TO CLEAN TOTOS BY THE AFTERNOON TODAY. I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT ARE MY PLANS FOR STUDYING SUCCESSFULLY. I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA AGIN ON MY MIND AND SARALA ADHIKAI AS WELL.I HAD SUBHAM LIBRARY ON MY MIND AND I STARTED HEARING COCK MAKE NOISES AS SOON AS I WENT TO TAKE OUT PHARMACOLOGY COPY FROM THE BOOKSHELF. I HAD LALITA KHANAL ON MY MIND. I HAD NAMASTE UNCLE SHOP ON MY MIND. I HAD MILK TEA AND SUGARY POFF FROM THE BAKERY SHOP OUTSIDE SUBHAM LIBRARY ON MY MIND. AND JUST NOW UNCLE FROM THE LIBRARY AS WELL. I CLEANED MY TOTO TODAY. I MESSAGED DR MAHENDRA THAPA DURING CLEANING. I MESSAGED RAJU MAMA AS WELL. I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND AND WAS THINKING ABOUT HOW HE LEFT THE GROUP WITHOUT ANY PROBLEM. I HAVE DR. MAHENDRA THAPA ON MY MIND. I HAVE MOM BEING WORKING ALONE IN THE KITCHEN ON MY MIND. I HAVE LALITA IN HER HOMETOWN HELPING HER FAMILY FOR DASHAIN ON MY MIND. I HAVE ME BEING THIN AND LEAN AND ALSO A DOCTOR AND OLD ADULT ON MY MIND BUT ALL ENERGETIC AND SELF-DEPENDENT WORKING OUT OF VALLEY ON MY MIND AND BIDHAN TALKING ABOUT THOSE FIRST TIME'S MEETING'S GATHERING TALKS ON MY MIND INSIDE MY DREAM AS WELL THINKING ABOUT PAST. I STILL HAVE BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND. I GOT BLUE JUST A WHILE AGAIN TODAY ON MY MIND. I WAS WONDERING HOW TO REDUCE MY WEIGHT EATING ALL THE JUNK ALL THE TIME EACH DAY. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STAY SLIM, LEAN, LOW WEIGHT, ENERGETIC, SMART, AND SUCCESSFUL AS WELL AS CHARMFUL WITH BEAUTY AND BRIGHTNESS. I JUST TALKED TO DR MAHENDRA THAPA JUST A WHILE AGO AND MR BIDHAN RUMBA WAS ON MY MIND. I EVEN CHECKED HIS BIRTHDAY ON THE WALL CALENDER. I AM HEARING COCK MAKE A NOISE RIGHT NOW AND IT STARTED ON SEPTEMBER 9TH MY LAST BIRTHDAY DATE. I FEEL LIKE IT SAYS IT OVER FOR YOU ALL THE TIME. I HAVE THIS NEGATIVE HEARING INSIDE OF MY MIND. I THINK IT NEEDS TO CHANGE IN ME.I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA AGAIN ON MY MIND AND SARALA ADHIKARI TOO.I TALKED TO DR MAHENDRA THAPA ON MESSENGER AS WELL. I OPENED A PINTEREST ACCOUNT ON A LAPTOP. I STILL HAVE BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND AND DAMODHAR TIMILSINA AS WELL. I WAS HAVING SELF-TALK WHILE LISTENING TO STOICISM QUOTES. I HAD DR MAHENDRA THAPA ON MY MIND. I HAD GONE HIKING WITH HIM ON MY MIND AND STAYED TO EAT BREAKFAST I DIDN'T EAT THE THAKALI RICE SET BUT WENT TO ORDER AND ASKED FOR GREEN VEGGIES, EGG BOILED, AND MILK. I MADE THEM BOIL THE GREEN VEGGIES LIKE A SOUP AND THEY SERVED ME SO. I SAW THIS INSIDE MY MIND JUST A WHILE AGO. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM PLANNING TO DO FOR MY STUDIES AND SUCCESS IN IT. I WILL PLAN MY DAY ROUTINE RIGHT NOW. I JUST HAD SUSAN SUMIKO PRADHAN AND NITYA PANDA ON MY MIND. I HAVE DR. MAHENDRA THAPA ON MY MIND AND HIS ELDER SISTER AS WELL. I HAVE MY OLD DORMITORY AND NOW DR. MAHENDRA THAPA DURING THOSE TIMES IN MY MIND. I HAVE ME ON MY MIND JOINING SUBHAM LIBRARY FROM SUNDAY. I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA AND HIS BROTHER-IN-LAW ON MY MIND A WHILE EARLIER WHEN I WAS HAVING JUNK IN THE KITCHEN.I TALKED TO DR MAHENDRA THAPA ON MESSENGER AND ADDED OLD FRIENDS WHO HAD UNFRIENDED ME FROM FACEBOOK.LOL! I THINK I AM STUPID TO DO THAT.GOD BLESS THEM ALL.GOD BLESS! IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY TO THIS SITUATION AND MYSELF AS WELL.I HAD BUDHAN RUMBA AND SARALA ADHIKARI ON MY MIND AGAIN AS WELL AND THOSE MESSAGES SENT WERE ON MY MIND.I SENT FRIEND REQUESTS TO MANY MORE OF WHOM I KNOW AGAIN.I HAD BIDHAN RUMBA ON MY MIND AGAIN AND I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE TIME SPENT WATCHING VIDEOS AND SONGS.I HAD PRINCE RAUNIYAR ON MY MIND AS WELL.I HAD ALL THE PAST ON MY MIND AND WAS THINKING ABOUT IT.