Notes

Vector Marketing
late at the moment. (not a good sign)
Is now five minutes late when email said promptly at 4pm
Starting to think this is not even real, I already had doubts when Justin laughed when he found out the company was Vector.
My camera is on and I have a good have a strong internet connection, so I am currently not understanding the reason for tardiness.
On to another subject because as of now they are ten minutes late.
The past few days have been very off, with the whole 'Tay" situation. I feel as if he now does not want to be around me anymore. I don't blame him though, if i was with a friend and their family member called them and said to stop hanging around me I know i would be hurt too. Its just that I myself didnt do anything wrong, in fact I sincerely apologized on the behalf of my aunt. I get their concern of me hanging out with a gay person when the dint agree with their lifestyle but our relationship isnt a sexual one so sexual preference is irrelevant when we are hanging out. At least to me that is. Again i can see the concern, but tay is a friend and i want to continue being friends.
(twenty minutes late)
Something happened to our garbage can. This is more funny because if someone stole it the its like " why steal a garbage can" but if the garbage men replaced the bin because it was damaged then its like " why did they not leave a note instead of having us worry about where we would put our trash."
Someone tried to extort me yesterday which is hilarious, because im broke lol. I literally have less than seventy cents on my cash app and i do not even have a bank account to add money. On top of that they tried to send my nudes to people who had already seen them before from me lol.
(30 minutes late)
Sophia called me "shaky" so now I have to defend myslef. I feel like i was trying be respectful. I think she wants me to "take charge" and be more aggressive. Thats confusing because she just told me weeks ago to be calm and not all about sex which i ama not by the way. I actually have deep feelings for her and i want to show her that but i dont kno if she feels the same. she says that im the only boy she likes but she was crying over the yyanna and i get that she could just feel betrayed by someone she wants to be her friend, but i feel betrayed slightly because how can i be the only boy you like when you make comments about tay. And im finding out about more boys that you have a history with. I mean realistically your gonna have multiple crushes but dont lie to me about it. She keeps bringing up prom as if she didnt tell me she anted to keep our friendship. she doesnt know what she wants and that's totally fine just dont continue to string me along. Its partly my fault because i keep letting her. I keep hoping that i can believe her. I know she is gonna be in my life for a long time but i dont know what part she is going to play.
(40 minutes)
I fell as if God is talking to me through the TikToks on my fyp. In fact, I know he is, i do need a better relationship with God. I have a problem with LUST. I know he can help me through it but i have to pray, trust in his word (by reading and understanding it) and actually put forth more effort into building a better relationship with him. 1st Corinthians6:18 states " Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside of the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins aga