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so, I don't really know where to start. I am in a hole. I am okay one min but the next I feel like everything is falling apart and I can't stand it. my mom past 2 months ago and I moved out of my best friend's house. it's now time that i need to work on myself and do what's best for me. I need to learn to be happy. I'm ready to do what's good for me. I will find my happiness. I have my guy best friend with me by myside and my number one supporter to help me through all this and that's my sister. my best friend that God let me have forever, I swear. I love her with my whole heart, and she has been helping me so much and she doesn't even know it. I wish I could explain it to her, but I honestly just can't. She is a blessing an di hope she knows. and my sweet boy jay helps so much, be keeping me on my toes and I love it. and bri, she's been a blessing as well, loving my sister. letting my sister be the mother of her child is the most sweetest thing ever! My brother is going through so much that I can't compare to his pain that he has going on in his head, hurts, pain, and sorrow. there I could do to take his pain away. if I could I would in a whole heartbeat. I love Arial and Des and Gemma and Gumbie, they are a blessing to keep around, have always been there for me when I was at my lowest. I thank them so God freaking much. I know my mom watches over me every day and I know some days she doesn't like what I do but there are days that i can't help what happens.