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they so have a favourite kid it is so obvious and they still think we don't know that the is Jamie, of course it is he cant do anything wrong in mams eyes she just puts it to the side and gives him hugs and kisses whilst telling him it is all fine. and dad just hates us all, he say thing thinking we don't mind and can handle it but it is not true he does what he wants as a way of showing his love, the name calling gets to me after a while and I try to act numb to it because I am "to sensitive, fat, need to stop eating, shut up, fuck off" many times I have overheard my parent talking shit about me and they walk it off by saying it is another person with the same name because i am not the only person in the world. my room can't even be my own safe room, no one know to knock or to not enter when asked, my own stuff is taken because some one else wants it but I cant touch anyone else's. ill tell you now no one is going to believe a word i say to anyone because I am a girl, too young, too old, not smart enough, not mature, too mature, there is never enough especially with my parent i am to lazy but i am the most athletic, clean most, answer, cook, and do whatever is wanted but it is not enough because i am the youngest and have no experience in life plus everything is placed on to me because i can handle it when i most defiantly cant do what ever is asked because i can