Notes

Dear diary...
I know it has been a long time since the last time we've talked. I miss talking to you...
I've been through a lot since then, whether good or bad or really bad... but one thing I know for sure, I survived.
I can't remember when exactly i stopped talking to you but it must be a really long time a go, right? I think about almost a year and half? whoa... don't ever think that I had lived a long a healthy life all these time wk wk.
I feel like there's a lot to talk about, where do i start? wk wk

Okay so.. now I'm a student at one of private university in West Jakarta, I'm on my second years majoring in Psychology.
I think I'm doing well with my studies, not really have a lot to talk about this but ya... it becomes one of my source of stress.
I also got a part-time a job since February, as a private tutor for any kind of subjects. I used to do tutoring for three students at a different places for like about three months but now I only have one left, i don't really want to talk about this either.

Because it was like my first time doing this after a long time of break, I feel like there was a lot of things I want to talk and I don't want to talk. I don't know where to start either,, should i just go with today? and skipped all of the things that had happened in these countless months? sure let's do that!! (>0<)/

So.. I woke up this morning by my mom's voice... she was mad at me (was? idk maybe she still mad)
she said that as a girl I should not wake up so late (I usually wake up around 8.40). I agree, I mean ya I understand maybe she wants me to wake up at 6 or 7 AM. I mean that's a mom thing. But, the problem is.. these days i was having a feeling that my mom was ignoring the hell out of me.. like she was beefing with me or sum. I don't know why she was acting so rude like that, I mean it's her thing.. it's not like this is the first time, but still! i hate it so much -_-

Also latelyy I've been feeling so down like I was thinking about what kind of person I've become right now... I'm so scared that the people i love would look at me in disappoint. Again, there's nothing I can do about it. I'm just keep on hating myself. I don't even talked to many people either... so sad of me.

05/09/2023