Notes

You act as if you are a good person, but you're really not. I really wish people like you just never got involved in my life to begin with, because all you want to do is be in my life temporarily to mess around. If you didn't you would deny it. But really you were just using me for sex, when I say I don't want to be treated like that anymore nor do I deserve it, you probably don't even understand why. You can't even say that you respect the fact that I don't want to be used by your sorry ass.

The truth is your ears are so big you look like a car with both doors open, what do you clean those things with, a tampon or a pad? Because I used q tips, then your lips are drier and crustier than the Sahara desert and you try to style it out with a beard, watch me shave that shit off and see what sort of man you are then! I'm done saying good things about you because you pay it no mind and you act stuck up and uptight as a person in return by saying I'm childish, immature and you only associate with specific people.

You really are stuck up, what you said to me was snooty and uptight, lets face it, it shows that you can't appreciate some people for being a way that makes them happy and you really lack understanding for certain people so you just avoid involving yourself with them.

You never had a decent or valid reason for being in my life and you can't even explain properly why you were even there in the first place. You added me because you felt like it which is such a useless and pathetic reason that men in their early 20s will have. and then you'll probably just block me with no explanation.

See, This is what pisses me off, you come into my life, work at gaining my trust and steering conversations in a different direction then you offer me so little and start fading out and making excuses for yourself... You aren't even capable of being a real friend who would stick by me.

You lie about caring about me or respecting me and you are really just wasting my time. I wouldn't be in this position if you had just not involved yourself in my life or my Facebook friends list and I don't want to associate with you either. Why associate yourself with me in the first place then?

I'm actually happy to have found someone who could appreciate me in the end and quite frankly you'll never match up to him. Someone who is available to me emotionally, who is proud of me, who can offer me the upmost best, who brings out the best in me as a person, somebody who travels all the way from outside London to see me each week and reminds each day that he is there for me if I ever need to talk.

You were never really a friend, you never understood me or how I've felt from the people who have hurt me, I've had more memories with him more understanding from him in 3 months, than I've had from any other person like you in a year. Compared to that, you did nothing for me as a friend, you were only then when it suited you, you only came to see me when it suited you or for one thing.

You never cared for me or about me, you just pretended as if you did. You never personally knew me you just added me based on what I looked like to hook up with me. You play the same tricks on as you did with others.

Your contacts just extend and I was just put on hold by you. When really, I'm too good for you and I deserve better than someone as flaky and sporadic as you are.

You don't even care if I cared about you or if there are things on my mind hurting me and I hate people like you. Stop faking your way into my life, then backing out. Men who have no meaning for being in my life are just little boys who want to play around and I'm sick of boys who can't take responsibility for the way they make a person feel or when a person has feelings or things that have impacted or hurt them.

I would usually compliment your character and say any girl would be lucky to receive you but fuck that, with your lazy ass eye and huge elephant ears, you're just like the rest, you're a standard guy and the crumbs from the past, right now I'm angry and feel a mixture of emotions but eventually you and anyone else who has hurt me will become the scraps and leftovers until I would be past the point of caring.

I personally wouldn't want to end up in a relationship with someone like you. Mainly because you're judgemental and stuck up when someone wants to make jokes and be fun and you aren't aware when you upset that person, some people you just don't care whether you hurt them or not or whether they stay within any of your priorities, which is just being a real asshole to be honest.

You want to act like you don't even know what I'm talking about? Lets make a list shall we?

-You are bigheaded in the sense that you said something out of line that was hurtful to me personally.

-You built up trust, then you got sex and began distancing yourself with the excuse that you are busy, when a person like my needs someone who rest assured is available and not just penising about.

- Some of the things you do are actually so damn rude in general, note the last time we met, you didn't even look up from your phone when I was saying goodbye from your car.

-No one gets so busy to the point that you don't build a face to face connection with someone for months. Having a face to face friendship didn't matter that much to you and you have no true argument saying it did, therefore why should you matter to me? Why am I even making a person such as yourself matter to me?

-You don't respect the fact that I want to be more than just a hook up it seems, which is sad to see really because as I say this I don't get, "I respect that and I didn't just want to use you, I liked certain qualities about you, that made you a suitable friend who I wanted to get to know better" I get ignored or "Lol, what you on about?", which was a really dick response.

- You don't prove yourself to be dramatically different from the people I met in my past who hurt me and treated me badly. Same moves and probably used on multiple people.

- Could I really trust you, could I really know your intentions or motives? What if you just wanted to promote your events or boost your rep or get someone to sleep with? You don't even explain it.

- How do I know you wasn't building up something serious all this time while playing about with others?

There is a lot I could say that I am mad about, there's a lot that I'm on about, actually. I can literally roast someone if I wanted to about everything wrong with them and the sooner I move on from you and stop feeling angry, the happier I'll be with the people who do things right and who are going to grow with me.

I was too soft on you, I praised you too much, when really I built up resentment towards you because of the way you've treated me and from being felt like I was being used. No matter how I was, it's out of order to do that to someone who is upset and it makes you insensitive towards them.

By blocking me you'd be doing me a favour anyway because I get irritated at just looking at your face. Ain't nothing bad you can say about me because I'm beautiful and if I hadn't had made the mistakes I did and made changes to my personality back then you would have been punching way above your weight to begin with and I'll show that to you when I change and succeed!

I didn't have to accept your request or even acknowledge your existence. You big yourself up as a guy who is well known in the media industry, an entrepreneur, but really you're nothing special, it doesn't make you any more of a considerate person and I realised that.

I put you on this pedastool as someone with an interesting life, someone who I care about and enjoy speaking to, but you actually started treating me really badly, ignoring me, using terms that offend me, despite the type of person I am. So really, you shouldn't be anything to me.

I have no apologies or regrets for anything I've said here, seeing as you don't either.

I really need to put a filter on people who can be a part of my dreams and ambitions because...

-Shit happens, people start changing and deciding to back out your life.

- You can't always trust that some people aren't just there to use you for sex or a rep boost.

- Guys who take you back to their house the first time they meet you and anywhere near a bed are likely to be playing around with you.

- Some people make assumptions about you that aren't even true, then go.

- Some people reject you, when you cared and it really hurts.

-Some people go through an injury, then completely replace you with somebody else without you knowing when you put dedication towards them.

- Then the people who don't care how old you are disregard your health or what you want, and pressure you into what they want instead.

That's ALSO what I'm on about. Too many people have nothing but crap to offer in the end and it took me 3-4 years to find someone who is actually treating me in a way a deserve.

I'm not even feeling anyone anymore because the people who weren't there in my down falls can surely fuck off when the see my success.

They can go and be the dust since that's how I felt treated at times and I should have known the best people are harder to find and don't come as easily as a Facebook request.

I'm done with you. I don't care whether you read this or not, if it's too harsh or too long, I just want to stop caring now, about you and everything to do with you.

You got roasted and with good reason. Doubt you have a response and if you do, don't even bother because you are the last person I will associate with now, I realised how angry you actually made me and I was trying to justify my words by ending it on a good, friendly note but that's not what will make me stronger and get the anger out.

With that, I'm out of here, literally.