Notes

I really am struggling with my mental health. Every time I get a chance to be happy something or someone takes it away and then I get this feeling of loneliness. Like I'm on the verge of life and death. Ik this is dramatic but Im so close to ending it fr. Everybody draining me. When I kind of pushed you away it was bc I was trying to heal not let you go. I js want to cry every night it hurts so badly. Ik I hurt people too but this shit really fucking hurts. Thats why I want to go to my mom's bc she understands what im going through. Genesis yu might think that I'm a good person, but I'm truly not. Some things in my past would say otherwise. I js need a hug fr. I don't even feel comfortable in my own body. I think ima quit softball. That shit draining too. When me nd Daniela get into an argument or I disagreement I always end up apologizing. Daniela says I live in a perfect family js bc my stepdad nd stepmom is white. I hate when she says that because she doesn't know wt truly goes down at my house. I js want to cry so badly. But like I'm sorry if I ever got on your nerves or hurt you really badly. I'm js tired nd want to escape somewhere. But js understand Genesis that if we ever get into a fight or sum I'll always still be here for you. You my ride or die. And Ima stick with you till the end.