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The best way to eat ramen is to just eat ramen thats all you got to do because the best way to eat ramen is to eat ramen now about my friends they are leaving me out right now and those friends are Samantha and Rhianne, they just want to talk with each other right now but I think Sam is growing away from me. Yes this has happened before but I think it's just coming back to hurt me again. I believe that my friends are leaving me because of the way they act these days. For example, sometimes when I try and say something they are either talking over me, start a new conversation with someone else, they don't pay attention to me too. But my mother said that it could be because I don't push myself into these conversations and ask them, hey can I play with you. I do try and do that, they say yes. But when I play with them it's like they don't want me here. It's like i'm a lost cause. At home too. I need to be perfect to get appriciated and it hurts trying to be perfect because everytime I do something wrong it's like i'm a bad person and people look at me in that specific way. I really try to be good for everyone that I don't notice that I am not being good to myself. I try to fake it but sometimes it really gets to me but no one notices that I am really hurting on little things they say. Some of the things that do are that sometimes they make the sign language X in their hand and put it to their mouth which means that I did something weird. Another example is when they look at someone else and the other person is shocked. Like, I didn't do anything wrong...did I? Earlier, my friend Sam was tired from school and I was trying to cheer her up. I went to sit down and opened my computer to do something (this) and then Magic Juice, calls her up to play basketball when we were in a conversation. So she said hold on Chloe, I'll be right back. So she goes up and Rhianne comes in and says Oh your still here?! Then they have thing very long conversation, lasting longer than I talked to her. Rhianne and Sam talk to each other for a while and make tiktoks together while i'm here writing this thing while i'm being left out again. I know what your thinking, "Chloe why don't you just go up there and ask if we can all hang out" Thats the thing, I can't because little do you know, I would just get left out again so minus well stay here instead of being awkward up there. I'm kinda jealous you know..I mean Sam and Rhianne have these perfect bodys, personality, voice, smart and I can't be any of them. Sam's dad is an engineer and is one of the board members of this school. She has everyone crushing on her and she one of the popular kids. Rhianne is rich, she has 2 rice feilds in the Philippines and her mom just got a Tesla. She has a boyfriend and a tutor after school. While me, I just have a nice house mom works as pto president and I have never been on a plane. (no offence mom dad). But if you put me on a scale rank with them, i'll be on the floor.