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i feel so sad rn he was my first loved and still i will always care for him even tho i don't think he even cares about med like that but is ok ill always care for him no matter what and ill always be there for him. there's too much shit going on rn he dont talk to me since like Wednesday and i miss him so much i feel like while i was at school he was being forced to date me. i fr liked him even tho i kept telling people I didn't fw him and i didn't like him and that i didn't care Cuz people been telling me he don't want me so tbh im not finna force him or anything but i fr love him he was my longest relationship and i wish it was way longer than 4 months and i wish i never moved schools but at the same time once again while i was over there i fell like he was being forced. tnh i always knew this was gonna happend any day soon but i partially wasnt ready, ik if he ever comes back im obviously gonna accept him but i feel like he gon do the same shit but is wtv and just wanna be with him fr. At my new school imma be so off and everything is gonna be so different cuz he aint gon be there neither my friends. i need a therapist but my therapist hates me saying im her opp even tho i care for her she said i ¨´snitched´´ which i didnt i just to get water but she was all the rights to think at the end of the day we stilll finna love its other but anyways, thats not the point but yea i really love that men and its just crazy cuz ive never loved a boy that much. and ngl it feel really weird especially when u start to get well there's never and good ending in a relationship unfortunately but yea no boy has made me cry fr like this except for luis but this one was way worst. but anyways i will never forget of how happy this boy made me.