Notes

dear nova, as much as i wish you could read this i know you no longer cant. i feel like a loser writing this, eitherway i hope you know how much i miss you, you probably felt like i stopped caring about you but i swear i never stopped caring, the regret and the guilt is killing me for not checking up on you, for not just randomly calling you or sending you a text. i hope you never felt like you didnt have a good impact on my life cause you really did, i swear i feel like i became as colorless as these tears running down my cheek. at this point all i just wanna do is scream out how sorry iam i constantly question what i could've done to prevent this, to prevent you from leaving. i constantly think about how much pain you were in to make the decision you made, i hate this world as much as you did i hate it so much aswell to the point i wanna do the same decision you made but the thing is we shouldnt even have to think that way but the way this world drives you insane, but now that i think about it its not the world its the people. i wish people showed more kindness to your sweet soul, you never deserved to go through what you went through