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Hi pj hope u are well we have been together since 6 months so all I am asking is just plz listen to this for 5 minutes thats all first of all I am so sorry so really sorry I gone through ur texts since last 6 months and u were sayin to just love u i am such an ass hole to not listen to you u were sayin u were not well I kept pushin i am such a fuckin dumb guy actually I was going though a lot too but that does not give me any right to treat u the way I treated you u kept sayin i need love this is not what I want i am really sorry from centre of my heart I truely am i fell in love with you the first day I say u didn't ask cuz i thought u were way out of my league u are my one true love i really can't Iive rithiht you or go on in this life without you it was so perfect with you the time I spent I miss ur good morning text,cutie snapchats everything ,ur cutie voice u calling me aman sir I lost my life I lost u u remember dandelions it played on our first night together everything was so perfect u cleaned my face when I ate what u ordered we were so happy together everybody got so jealous of us that's how cutie we were together i keep on listening to dandelions thinking of u ,keep on watching our stories together and keep crying and getting shit drunk .i listen to kahani suno and when theat line plays he Tamanna mujhe tumhe dulhan bnaye it makes me cry so bad i have never cried so much in my entire life not even when my nana died and drink so much it's not ur fault it's all my fault I take the blame on me it was always me u are a gem and i lost u coz of my fuck fullness my mom keeps askin if u alright i stopped eating and stuff they thought it's coz of my father and they took me to doctor as well it is all my fault I am so sorry I have gone into depression i wake up in the middle of night in my day job and then can't even go back to sleeping start thinkin about you i can't even do daily chores i wake up thinking about u ,go to job i think about you go to sleep thinking about you plz never think that it was a bad thing u broke pm and my relationship it was nothin i never even thought about her but with u it is true love i can't live without u plz come back pj if future is what u want i am ready to marry u pj even with relegion and all that I am ready too i am begging u to plz gimme a chance u are such a softie xutie pie ik u can find it in my heart to forgive me even if as friends and we will see how it goes from there we can come to celebrate akash and my bday as friends we will keep talkin and see how we go from there plz i am begging u i don't want this life if it's not with u in it i will be so happy if u just sent me a hi it will make my day 1000% better and i will be so happy that I can fucking dance out of hapiness.