Notes

me as an avatar. im in the forest. context ; i am faced across a tiger like creature. who asserts more dominant me or the tiger). i growl

im sitting on the floor jean..
im not afraid of him or anyone. i fear no man on this earth. i will get up in your face and stare you in the eyes. i do not let anyone distrept me. me as a person who is self worthy will not let anyone talk shit in my face like that. he pissed me off. said something i didnt like. but now im sitting on the floor hes wispering in my ear, he seems a bit upset with me. im not sure for what tho.

when i am self worthy then i will do this to myself. everyday is worth living. everyday is a new journey or mission. i feel amazing.

my hair grew fast as hell. those kind of girl that when u cut it one day it will grow back 5 more inches in the next 3 months. such a cycle. i can write and read arabic. im getting so much better at it. i always knew i was a fast leaner, after reprogramming my brain. im sitting up straight on my bed my plush blanket surrounding me and a laptop screen lit up infont of me its 9:07pm just came out the shower in my pj shorts and dark grey oversized tee hanging on my slim and fit body. im smoking a blut lsitening to "09 alone with my airpod pros in. dancing infront of a mirror listing to my tiktok saved sounds with a blunt in the right hand.
im talking to the universe through me, my cousions. im using a pretty vessel. and i also know a little sign language. i practice with zendaya.

we as one how can we not understand that. we are the same.

its 10:19 pm late night drive in my mercedes s class. i drove to get some food. im stopped at a red light one hand gripped on top of the weel listening the tiktok videos swipping by through my car speaker. the bass is soo deep and smooth. can hear every word clearly. from the side profile from the other car. the light turns green reflecting off the windsheild, i look up and skirt off fast.

on mushrooms listening to music. the universe enfolding infront of me for the first time. the way i should live life. so i can enojoy everything as if for the fist time. the real way to live life.