Notes

I'm sorry for everything. I'm just writing this but I'm not showing you this because you decided for us to take a break. And I understand Every reason why you're doing this so I won't say this isn't true or that isn't true. It sucks knowing its only been 4 week since we got close and have gotten 3 fights. it's all my fault. I take full responsibility about the lying and the fights. But for the sexuality I understand. I know you have so much stress and I know us arguing and everything isn't helping. I didn't know you slowly died because All i thought about was our friendship and myself and I realized i forgot about how you felt. I know you thought you were the only one to sustain our friendship. But can I be honest? I've never had a best friend like you. I didn't know how to sustain our friendship. I didn't know what best friends do or say and so much more. And if you're gonna bring up keanna, don't because we weren't best friends. Do best friends just talk about the same guy every single day? no huh so I really didn't know how to sustain it but now that I do know. I can't promise you I'll fix everything but I promise I'll try. I promise I'll think about how others feel. But I did think about how many friends you had but I didn't think about how you felt. I did sometimes ask if you were okay and you said you were but were you really??? I know it's stupid how I should know what friendships are like but really I don't,,,, you're actually my first actual best friend. you may have a billion other of best friends and who you can trust more besides me but that's okay with me. I'm afraid of after a while were just gonna forget each others existence or were just gonna fade away and never talk. I want you just to talk to me when your ready. I know it won't be the same but i'm willing to build back our friendship.