Notes

Dear Lord; it's been a long time since i spoke to you ive been dealing with so much since the last time we spoke since the first until the last. Theses past few mouths has been horrible for me. I asked and begged for you but it seemed like all you ever did was watched me suffer things have not got better for me i lost my relationship with my first love i'm still being attack i never thought that this would happen to me. Yahuha i need you so bad i never ever been like this before i'm not okay lord hear my crys please im begging you to help me i dont like this at all i hope im not being selfish but i don't know what else to do besides this Yahuha i love you lord thank you for what you have done for me. the attack cause me to lose my relationship forever this is all my fault i made him feel like he wasn't enough when he was all i had .Now he has left me and don't want anything to do with me which is all my fault because i could've tried harder then what i was now he has somebody new and is life which is breaking my heart because i told him that i was still inlove with him and i felt like he laughed at me lord and my face. And he told me Tiawna probably the old me but we was young he's right but i only wanted that back but i have to understand that when we grow we change his love outgrew mines so that means he's not inlove with me anymore but he has love for me yahuha 4 years why would he watse my time like that i wanted him i still want him after everything i gave that relationship to much for it to be over im angry lord he gave up on me i prayed for for that relationship for 4 years for it to be over and gone so now what because i see you don't want me to be with him i'm so sad that it had to end that way lord is this really over between us ? do i continue to pray over our relationship or move on. please tell me yahuha anything dream or however you want to show me lord i haven't spoken to him and 4 months besides the last couple days ago lord i thought i could change him unto a better person but im not fit for that i see yahuha i love you dearly please give me a sign i feel along he was my only friend i hope its not true but if it is i will not bring him up again ps;your daughter Tiawna