Notes

I have many passions towards many things. But my main passions are having a good look on myself from others perspective physically and mentally, getting the things I desire for or close to it, and making sure that me and those who I care for are alright at the end of the day. Reason why I've chose these passions was because growing up I've always was a good person. I admit, I was disobedient and stupid at times for my words and actions. But I didn't stop me from having a positive attitude towards others and towards things I do in the day. I started having a passion towards my looks and on how people view me physically and mentally was because I realized that there really is a good impact on it, like wearing a nice suit with your hair nicely done, or for when you make everyone laugh every day. Examples like those are good reasons why I have a passion towards that. Last thing was when I started making a good amount of money at my age, it made me realize on what I could do with it, but at the end I never really had many desires. time went on, savings account increased, and slowly I had more ideas for thing that I wanted. At some point it became a passion due to the fact that it gave me more confidence knowing what I had compared to others. It's nice with what I had; more Ideas would generate as time went on, and I of course would still keep the confidence and cheap mindset I've always had. I developed these passions over time all by just making money, being positive person around others, and caring about others and my own perspective. All of these came in motion in the beginning of high school, and it became better as I'm soon about to graduate. Skills I've gained throughout time was maintaining self-control, having a positive mindset towards many things, and to always be patient. I gained these specific ones because of course I wasn't at first, being patient and having self-control of my words and actions weren't my thing at first. Eventually I discovered the impacts its haves on myself and towards others. As time went on, it became a normalized thing for me throughout my days. These passions are important to me because it defines who I am, makes me look like the good person and respectable person that I've always wanted to be. Not only making me feel and look good, but the relationship and bonds that come along from my doings make life easier. To be frank, things will never always go your way, regardless of your huge impacts, but at the end of the day I don't let downsides like that stop me from doing what I want and desire for. And even If I don't get what I want, it's okay trying to. Possessing positivity and spreading it towards others is transcendence.
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A time from what I remember that I needed help was when I was venting to my friends in a discord call about this one girl in the same county that broke my heart. As a high school, of course things like this would happen to those who open out to that warm feeling with one another. And don't worry, I'm mentally okay enough to write this situation down. I was recovering from a previous break up, we never dated though, it felt as if we were to be honest. Nearly half a year into the breakup, I'd always think about the situation between me and the girl. So, I took responsibility and not keep it to myself. My friends knew about it, but I never open out to them for an actual talk. Time went by, a lot of yelling, negative emotions too. It was a good talk, but it took me awhile to understand the words that were thrown at me on that day. I knew I needed help due to the fact that I was aware that I wasn't going to get better if I kept doing slick actions that none would know of. And I wanted to be better, and so I took time to have a deep conversation with my friends. What I learned from this experience is that you should seek out to those who're wise and to not be afraid to ask for help if you want things to go good for you.
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My academic and career expectations is to make sure that I am satisfied for my accomplishments at the end of my educational journey, and to make the best memories possible. I'm aware of how It'll be difficult at times, knowing that I won't be well connected to those who are close to me, and how I won't get what I want as much this it'll be a new experience for me that'll last for a maximum of 4 years. Since I'm aiming for my bachelor's degree. But I'll of course ask for help and try my best to make the experience and journey a good one for me.
I will try to make my time very sustainable, so I don't end stressing myself more than I need to, and to flow things safe and smart. By doing this I plan to save money, apply for financial aid, maybe some more scholarships, and definitely have some sort of communication with others who've had the experience longer than I had. I also plan to make the experience not only comfortable for me, but to also have a good understanding of the things that I desire towards. Whether if it were to be good grades, good bonds, or even better opportunities for anything that comes up later throughout college.
After college, I plan to save more money up, hopefully find a job that is organized and suitable for me and my schedule with the degree that I gained, and to move out whenever.