Notes

happy birthdayy daddyyy..... i'm so glad to hv someone like u in my life not just as a frnd but also as someone i can lean on at any given point in life for any situation..... and i love you so much..... ik i say i hv insecurities n trust issues n shitt but one thing i'm pretty sure about n know deep down is that u love me like shit n trust me u hv no idea how glad that makes me ki there's someone in this lifetime who loves me like u do.... i remember once u said that no one could love me like you and i agree no one wud ever love me like u EVER..... u make me feel special u make me feel wanted to make me the happiest ik it might be cheesy but u make me whole..... i'm very shy by nature n get embarrassed easily n even if it all happens while i'm with u ik u won't judge me.... i mean anyone wud judge me duhhh i'm a total weirdo but u won't judge me in a bad way..... n even tho u say ki it's not hard to love me trust me ik myself myb thoda bhot n utne me hi i can say it's hard aff to love me..... it is n it always has been..... u the most understanding, supportive boyfrnd..... people say u find love just ONCE in ur life or some say u find it more than once but the timings never match i feel like i found the right one for me at the right time..... i miss you everytime u away n don't wanna let u go everytime u with me..... u made a girl who hated skinship to a girl who wants ur touch one way or the other..... u make me feel so safe n secure that i love being in ur presence..... idt i'm able to find words to describe exactly how i feel it's just like how u say "it can't be put in words"..... i hv seen multiple sides of u and i love them all..... it's ur bday today n u said u don't like celebrating it but i just hope u enjoy ur bday..... bdays r special, specially urs..... ik the timing sucks n we giving r boards n ur bday is literally in the middle of two exams but it's ur bdayyyyy trynna enjoy it as much as possible..... it's like i hv a lotttt to say but just can't think of anything rn..... ohh hv i told u?? ur laugh is kinda of like my fav things of u idky i just feel the happiest when u laugh n if i can make u laugh i'll do anything i can for that..... liking someone's laugh might sound weird too buttttttt it is what it is (deja vu)..... u hv a video on snapp in which u laughing like just a single video in which i could hear it but i hv heard it like a countless times..... thinking back there's been quiet a few times when i hv found u attractive even before actually liking u out of which 2 times to i hv told u but uk when u looked the most attractive?? when u just happy to ur heart's content..... u look the best when u the happiest..... i honestly don't care what it is i as long as it makes u happy..... kavya u r just way too special to me so don't get sad n if anything's happening in ur life then plzzz like PLZZZ don't suffer alone n keep it inside thinking i'll worry about it..... it'll worry me a lot more if ik smthing's not right n u ain't telling me..... n well about ur effect on me just thinking of u makes me smile unconsciously and i can't control it..... idt i can control any kind of feeling that's bcoz of u be it laughing when i find smthing funny or going all uwuwuuu when u cute cute or just smiling when i can make out that u in a very good mood more like a grttt mood..... see this is soo weird i hv written sm but i still feel like a lot of stuff's missing..... it's like i can talk about u n us for a longgg longgg time..... i could write PAGES about u..... nothing high-fy but just so cute and attractive..... right cuteeee ohh goddd u believe it or not u cutee u like veryyy cuteee n genuinely the best part is that u hv NOOOO idea n u don't even admit u dumb-dumbshit..... andddd the most imp thing that i never thought wud be possible is that u can calm me down when i'm hving anxiety n u notice..... u notice n uk if i'm not ok n u leave everything to calm me down..... i never thought that it wud be this easy to calm me down but all it needs it ur presence n u just WITH ME..... idt u hv a proper idea of what to do when someone's going thru anxiety but u just try ur best when u don't even hv to..... just stay with me n hold my hand for a while n i'll be fine it became this fucking easy..... i feel like this is so fuckingggg biggg like a huge huge msg but i just can't stop writingggg..... i started this as a bday msg but it's more like a journey down the memory lane of ur time together..... ohh righttttttt just u searching up stuff about what i hv n u don't know it just sooo cuteee n like awwwww worthyyy..... mtlb remember when i said i had some cancer (i don't even remember) igg kidney cancerr IG u fucking just looked it upp even the survival rateeee n were all positive till the end ki if i hv surgery it'll be fine..... u kind of like the perfect boyfrnd..... the best i could ask for..... more than enough for me..... n it's like uk me PURAAA nhi it's not LIKE that u do know me pura better than anyone which kind of does not work in my favour at times..... and daddyyy i love you not like vla love or like it's weird to reply to i love you with an i like you so i just say that i love you NO i genuinely like i mean it from every fucking cells of my body that i LOVE love you..... uk there r times when i don't exactly pay attention to what the other person is saying but if i hear ur name i'm attentive to the fullest as if i'll hv to give an exam of what i'll hear it's funny even when i think of it..... I SHUD STOP NOW..... this is never ending..... i hv a feeling i'll hv to fucking edit this it's so longggggg..... it's srsly no longer a bday msgggg..... it's like a note to self..... it's so long that it migth actually be boring after a point ohh jesuss..... ohh ohkk so let's end this here ohh nhi waitt.. nhi chhoro.. nhi sunoo... I LOVE UR KISSES DADDDYYYYYYY..... abhi ke liye itna hi vrna mene aur likha to bss ye tumhe kbhi send hi nhi hoga bss me likhti hi rhungi ghantooo..... so yup yup let's end it with my standard bday msg ending altho it's no longer one..... so once again a veryyyyyyy happy bdayyy daddyyyyy..... i love you and well we'll celebrate after boards by let's say going on a date our first ACTUAL date?? what say?? i feel like i'm missinf smthing i had to write smthing else too..... nehh chhoroooo u enjoy lovee n stay happyzzzzzz..... also i'll gift u another thing on 28th arasoo.....