Notes

shes ignoring me. i have absolutely no idea why. did i do something, did i say something, was i the cause, even though i don't know if i was the cause i feel responsible. i ask people what they think but they say shes just like that, i don't believe that. out of all the things i here i believe i might be the cause, do make things to obvious or am i just paranoid or is it true and she's going through something and im caught in the middle of it. my feelings for her haven't changed but i'm getting hurt and no one sees it, maybe just one or two people, its probably getting noticed more and more by people. i might have to go cold turkey or just act more distant. its going to be hard but in order for me to keep things from falling apart and being the bad guy i must be the bad guy and just be a normal friend and avoid doing stupid things. i have to do it in order to keep her around, if i can do it by the time she graduates than maybe i can tell her then. but now i must keep being the guy who friendzones her, if i don't, then she will breakup with me as a friend, that's not what i want, its going to kill me either way if i tell her or not but for now i just have to be a friend