Notes

First of all, Happy birthday! I know that you will never read this, and if you casually found this letter you wouldn't understand much, but as a person that feels so much love for you, I have the necessity to write, and express everything that I hold in my heart for you.

When I got into BTS I didn't have a bias, actually my eyes weren't really directed to you, I was new to k-pop or Korean music in general and my attention was really focus on your songs and lyrics, not the members in particular, then I started watching interviews, bangtan bombs, all of BTS videos and before I realized it I started feeling something really special for you. "We are really alike", "I identify with his personality", and I still think that. A lot of aspect of your personality were like mine, that was the start. It didn't pass a lot of days before I knew about your childhood, your hard moments, the tough life that you went through at a young age, I was mesmerized by your self improvement and I felt so much respect when I found out how you overcame the dark days. You became my bias, yes, you were the one member that caught me, and you were under my skin even before I said "yes, he is my bias".

I'm not the girl that stans a lot of musicians, I love music, but the last time a supported a group with all my heart I was 14 years old, I'm 21 now and I didn't expect this to happen to me, but here I am, in love with a group of 7 member, loving each one of you and enjoying every song. And here I am, feeling this weird thing in my stomach every time I see your face, Yoongi. It's not normal, I know, and it's hard because you live in the other side of the world and probably I'll never get the chance to say this to you, but I can't help it and I can't change it: I admire you, I respect you, I adore you, I'm honored to be your fan and watch you accomplish your dreams and goals, I'm so proud of living at the same time as you, I'm in love with the fact that your music reached me and made me your fan.
You made me believe again in a lot of thing I lost hope on, you made realize that if something makes you miserable is not right for you, you made me feel again that I'm capable of reaching my goals if I work hard for it, you made me understand that is not right to let someone put me down.
You're my moon and stars, I see you from afar and I'll always be there in the distance looking up to you, supporting you and loving you.
Thanks for inspiring me, thanks for makings my days a brighter, I'll return what you have done for me; I'll be cheering for you in the crowd, I'll be calling your name to remind you to keep going, and even though you'll never see me in that crowd, I hope that my love can reach you somehow. Happy birthday, Yoongi, never forget how beautiful you are, and never doubt that you deserve all the good things in life.
I'll see you in 3 days.
-Camila.