Notes

I have made one of the most difficult decisions in my life. That teared my heart. I really can't believe I'm doing this.. I've been hurt so badly for these past 5 years. Since I entered the internet and started meeting people (strangers) and then calling them my friends. Well , They weren't and they will never be. Many have hurt me Intentionally and unintentionally.. but it still hurts. And pain remains pain no matter what. Recently someone I used to call my friend gave that little push I need it to delete this fake life. Someone I thought I love. But was lying to me for long years. And killed me everytime he ignored me despite he knew it'd hurt me to be ignored specially by him. I know now he actually enjoyed seeing me suffer
I'm glad I'm aware now that our friendship was totally fake and he was never my friend.
Now that I'm leaving and about to start really living. I want to pass this message to you. I have no account on the internet. Not anymore. And may I have the strength to keep that.
Please take my advice : if you are being hurt , even by your closest friend , that it touched you deeply and you don't know wether you tell them or not , that's when you need to stop and make things change. Other than that,I wish you have TRUE friends . Keep those who never hurt you or take you for granted.
We often love someone who's not loving us back that we get blind on others who'd die to see us happy.
I wasn't a good friend either and so I apologise to anyone I've ever hurt. I'm really sorry, I never meant to hurt you.
It tears me up , to walk away , after 5 years of my life i've spent on social media with none to call'friend' . I just wasted these days , and what kills me is that I'll never get them back , for what life is.
I'm turning up to you , whoever read this , please quit anything that scratch your heart , please leave everything and start chasing your own happiness. It's ok if you have to lose some people. That's life, we learn. But importantly, gain yourself.
No matter how many friends you have, Ask yourself , daily , who's my close friend ?, if your mind can't call up one name, just one,then you don't have real friends.
I end up crying for not having a true friend among all people I knew.
And now I have to start from the very beginning. And try to fix what I can.
I wish ,from the bottom of my heart, you find serenity and happiness for I know how it feels to be at the lowest low.
Please take care of yourself and Stop hurting yourself .
With all my love..
Wish you Happy Eid :)