Notes

So not sure how to say this, but here goes. I'm fucking done with this life. It's already stressful enough on my own and crap, like with my friends and then Evan and David. Yeah sure I have to live through it like how my sister did but like still fuck that. I'm not as strong as most of the people in my family, I'm basically trash at this point to them. They have other shit to do and they sure don't want to deal with a 12 year old. Then again, you care about the 5 year old since he's the only boy that's loved by a lot of the family. Understand this, I don't give a single fuck, if you decide to insult me or bring me down in any way possible. My sister has already done that job for you, so that's great right! I mean she isn't even like my sister any more, like what the hell is she even more to me? Probably a person that changed a lot because of all the drama and issues she has in her own god damn life. So fuck me right? I'm hardly ever called her little sister anymore which is great, totally great. My older sister is gone, she isn't my sister anymore. I don't want to be 12, I don't want to be the little child sitting alone away from this crap. Just listen to me so I can actually help! But that's never the case is it...