Notes

If you have something in mind or change your mind about anything then just tell me. Sometimes I wish I think less, but that wouldn't be me. Just don't show my thoughts to everyone. I'm letting myself be vulnerable here. And I'm very discreet about myself. And I do that for a reason. And giving access to you doesn't mean that everyone should know or have a peek inside. Me telling you all this, is me letting you inside my head. You. Not everyone. You can tell them what is it about. But it's just not polite to expose me. It's okay though. But it was never for them in the first place, and I simply lay it out all on the table, because the way I see this. We both want it. And it's already hard. Why make it harder than already is? I know it's weird. You're not the only one that thinks it is. I too think it is. But think about it again. Why is it weird? Why do you think it's weird? Is it because it goes against the convention? The normal way of doing things. In business, they call this disruptive. People prized it. When you can achieve one thing, so straightforwardly simple, that people should've just thought it by now, but they don't. But why is not the case in social situation? Ego. As simple as that. There is no rule that says we can't work together. It's against the convention, but going against a convention where there is no formal punishment for violating them, is that even a bad thing? I don't think it is. Ultimately what we're after here is formality. That's all it is. It's strange because to me it is simple. People are the one who made it complex. Their thoughts and judgements form these conventions. Although, I don't think it's necessary but if it is to you, then okay. Let's do it. But help me with it. Cause I've got no experience in it. And I don't know who to trust, whose advice I can go seek. People leak. I'm on my own. I know what to do though.