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Hello, my name is Vladimir nice to meet you...
Not really but whatever...
I am born on october, 26th, 1999. in small and poor country in South Eastern Europe called "Serbia"...
I got born in poor family that hated me from the beginning...
I am not Serbian at all, my family roots are Czech, Hungarian, Croatian and German...
I am against all kinds of hate, racism, discrimination, nationalism, etc.
Let me tell you story of my life...
This is true story so please listen carefully...
My dad married my mom just to have kids that will be like him and he hated her since he met her...
Since i got born i have problems with pooping and peeing, that never changed, even now sometimes i do poop in my underwear and i pee in bed when i sleep...
I know that i am just a big baby and that i forever will be but it's not my fault!
When i got born and he realised that i look like her he started hating me and he hated her even more...
After i got born he started to beat her up, abuse her and do a lot of bad thing to her...
About two weeks after i got born she left him to live with her parents...
We lived there for few weeks and then my grandparents (dad's parents) came to ask my mom to go back to him...
They did that only because at that time they kinda liked me, he didn't cared at all for us but yeah she loved him so she came back to him...
About one year later my grandfather (mom's dad) died from cancer...
Funny thing is that if my mom die from cancer i can be sure that i will too!
Everything was same for few years my dad hated my mom and me, he did a lot of bad things to us but since my mom's dad died she knew that she can't go there anymore, her mom wouldn't let her so she didn't had where to go but at the same time she believed that he will change...
I had a surgery when i was about 3 years old, i had some problems with my balls... After surgery doctor said that chances for me to have kids are really low, i guess then my dad hated me even more...
December, 14th, 2003. i got brother and my mom was right my dad changed when my brother got born, he hated us even more and his parents started to hate us...
My brother is same as dad, he is like younger version on him (sadly)...
My dad loves my borther since he got born and he started to hate my mom and me even more, he though my mom will leave again with me and leave my brother to him...
My parents, brother and i moved to our own house...
We lived there but nothing ever changed...
Since i started going to school i alredy got a lot of problems, i got bullied all the time and i never had any friends...
Well i didn't had any true friends just few fake friends...
When i was about 12 years old i had 6 surgeries, something were wrong with my kidney and it got complicated...
I almost died, i was in hospital for 6 months and at that time i realised that i am depressed and suicidal...
We moved again and at that time i had my first and only girlfriend...
She lived about 2 minutes away from our house, i dated her only because she said she likes me, i thought it is true...
All day and almost all night i had to listen to my parents fight and talk about a lot of stuff so i thought it is better for me if i date this girl just not to be alone...
Before i dated her i kinda liked her younger sister that was 6 years younfer then me, she did liked me but she told that to her parents so they told me to stay away from her...
Well my girlfriend was younger then me 1 year, since we started dating i didn't know how she really is but later i found out...
She lied me, dated a lot of guys, did stuff for money, used and abused me...
We broke up after some time and after that i again didn't had anyone, i had a lot of online relationships but yeah it was always same: girl cheated on me, lied on me, used and abused me...
My grandmother died (mom's mom) and soon after that my parents got divorced...
My brother and i had to live with our dad but we got back to granparents...
My mom lived with her brother some time, she had a lot of boyfriends, she never talked to us, she forgot about us...
She got married after 6 months and divorced 1 year later...
My granfather died soon after...
I tried to kill myself for the first time...
Before 7 months my brother got killed...
Well he was grandson of my grandfathers (dad's dad) sister...
He got killed in Wienna, Austria...
I tried to kill myself again...
So yeah that's all i guess...
My life sucks and i will try to kill myself...
Please let me tell you something now, i don't need friend because i learned a lesson, i know who friends are and i don't need them at all, would rather be alone...
All i was looking for was a true friend, girl that i will date, that will be my true family, my soulmate, that i will talk to all day and all night, that i will be with forever but i give up i just can't anymore...
I am done and all i want is to end this pain...
If someone want to talk to me my email adress is [email protected] and use same email adress to message me on hangouts, my skype is live:vladodj1999_3, that's all social media that i have...
Bye and thanks...