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From SarahCroft08
Title : Diary, Diary who shall I tell my secret ?

Dear diary,

Secrets force people to lie, innocent as well as dark people. Everyone is touched, rather you like it or not. They burn the tip of your tongue as lies flew past your lips, tricking your partner into a false truth. Your eyes darkened, your throat ached but the lies still find a way to escape, soothing the hidden secret.
Why do we lie? Why do we have to have secrets? No, why do we NEED secrets? Is a secret truly a protection? Or a bomb?
Today, I realised something. My secret drew me apart from my friends, their support slowly fading as I refused to explain my strange behaviour to them. Next, even my family lost hope in me, as they knew something was wrong but they stayed in the shadows of ignorance. It was their choice, I can't blame them, can I?
Diary, I need to tell you something, I can't hold it back anymore! It's eating me from inside, devouring my thoughts, corrupting my souls and driving me crazy.
Will you let me tell you my secret?
Why I stay quiet when a wave of joy should overwhelm my body? Why I lost my smile?
Secrets took my smile away, that day my happiness was covered by a layer of infinite darkness.
There would be no more coming back...
The deeds I did dove me into a spiral out of control.
Are you ready, Diary?
To hear the innocence of a young girl be destroyed by a man, to understand why I did what I did.
The secret I bear is not only a burden, it is a part of me. I'm responsible for the fate of the secret.
I am part of the secret.
That night, something utterly devastating happened. What was supposed to be a normal night turned into a nightmarish reality.
It all started with a walk in the park, dragging my heavy feet to the pond where I could watch nature overalls life.
I never wanted to hurt anyone, I swear. It never was my purpose. I was just having fun near the pond. I grabbed a few stones which were scattered on the ground, heaving them in my palm to admire their symmetry and feeling the coldness contrasting with my body heat.
With one of the last smiles appearing on my face, I threw the stone in the water, enjoying the soft splash of the roc hitting roughly the water. You watched as gravity took back its rightful place, merciful.
Deciding to spice things up, I took a bigger rock and threw in the air as high as I could. I saw the sun rays pierced welcomed my vision, the rock causing a sudden eclipse and blinding me for a second while time seemed to fly. 
I didn't know that throw would be my doom.
I watched the greyish rock hit the surface of the pond like a swan dove, the sound of the roc colliding with water singing in my ear while I broke the lingered silence of the natural park.
How could I know that the stone I threw hurt a man swimming underwater, knocking him down the bottom of the pond until the authorities found him brushing the surface of the water, not breathing. How was I supposed to know someone was swimming in the pond when everybody knows it is forbidden?
This accident changed my perception of life. Forever.

So dear diary, you know my secret now.
I killed someone.
Involuntarily.
It cost me my smile, my nights, my life.
Diary, will you keep that secret with me ?