Notes

i am going to ramble while you sleep and /pray/ that you don't wake up before i finish
don't you freaking wake up i swear i'll freaking get super earlymorningmushy on you >BV
ahem
reese, yuk, tall (actually short) rat, yukmachine, bawh
ireallyloveyouohboyisthisrealhiwhooPs
okay so when i say things, i mean them. okayshush, that's not true. i'm not actually 92.
but when i tell you how i feel, it's as real as it gets. when i feel things, they hit me hard.
just like when you say f e t u s or something.
my imagination is almost always at full speed so i get that image and it's W O W.
it's the same sort of impact when i feel things, and when i feel things for you.
and i love you so much. and i really, really, really love making you happy. i love spending time with you and listening to you and all of the dorky, dumb, amazing things we do and will do together. i wouldn't trade you or any part of you for anything in the whole wide world.
you mean so much to me
talking to you, i'm not just a writer and i'm not just my own dumb character. it's not "Good morning, moonlight, I hope you're sleeping just super duper well!" with you. it's me and i can feel my own feelings and it's scary and i hate it but i also freaking love it to death
and i mean if i was just writing all this something bad would probably happen.
the worlds i think of are bittersweet and cruel, but you're nothing like that. you're a complete paradise, and i thank my lucky energydustorbs each and every day that i have you.
i'll never be able to word it right, but you're:
my guildmate
my competition
my vice president
my First Lady™
my friend
my bubs
my bubble
my happy
my best friend
my smooch
my best friend forever
my squish
my snowflakefriend.
and while i can't imagine what'd things would be like if you never talked to me, or if i never responded to you, or if i just up and ran away, i know you'd be just as amazing as you are, that you'd make me just as proud. because you are a person, through-and-through, with or without me, and that person is one of the best people i've ever met. i know you worry, and i know you doubt, but i need you to know that you are perfect to me, and that even if i wasn't here for you to be perfect at, you'd still be the flawless, amazing dork you are. maybe you can't believe that, but i know it's true with all my heart.
i'm neither the first to think that nor the last. there are others who see how amazing you are, and there will be many more.
and i'm not trying to be sad either, okay, like "boohoo imma go away now." this is just a fact. you're amazing inside and outside, and i'm always gonna be your babs no matter what happens or who we meet or what life throws at us. as long as you'll have me, you have me.
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so i think what i want to say is that i love you for who you are and i always will. and i love that i can be everything i am to and for you. you make me cry happy tears, you make my heart skip, you take away my loneliness.
i love your weird. i love your dorkiness, i reallyfreakingloveyouithurts,, i love you myshuFFLEJUSTSTARTEDPLAYINGKEANEI'MGONNACRyagainfieosviodg
i love our weird more than anything on this planet.
you do so much for me and it's absolutely thrilling to think i can do so much for you.
ahhh and i said i had an imagination, right? okay well see what i can't imagine is that i'm as important and special as you say i am, as you make me feel. that's my problem, of course, and i dunno how i'm gonna fix it, but just know that you help me so, so, so much. and i'm sorry i get weird and sad, even if you don't think i should apologize, because i know you worry and i hate making you worry.
you've helped me to come out of my shell, both online and in real life. and it's sappy and i feel way more than i've ever wanted to, but it's amazing and human and blah.
you truly have made me a better person.
so thank you.
(you'regettingathanksgivingnotejustfyi)

xoxoxoxoxo
- a wide-awake rambling doofus