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" NO and you know what else they don't understand that its not always about the bills or the president they don't understand that sometimes I just wanna sit with them and talk or that sometimes at school things happened and I just wanna text them and tell them about it BUT NOOO they would rather talk about how we need to conserve water and all this shit when all I want is to ask them how their day was , like my mom I know she loves me and I know that she knows that I love her but come on now does she not understand that she doesn't know how to show it that sometimes I want a hug not a life lesson about stupid . LETS NOT GET STARTED ON MY DAD , he doesn't understand that when I see him I want to tell him about everything about how my day at school was , but he just wont accept the fact that I'm not little anymore , I'm gonna start wanting to go out I'm gonna start doing things I  have never thought about before , BUT IM 13 NOW I CAN CONTROL MYSELF , like I know not to do anything stupid , I'm smarter then that I know about the consequences of specific things . Its not like I'm gonna go around making out with random people its not like I'm gonna start doing all this nasty shit , but its like they don't even have any trust for me , like come on now IM NOT A CHILD how many times do I need to tell them this and remind them of this . Like at this point I just wanna graduate do my things and just leave . Like just pack up my shit and leave not even looking back , but I cant , you know I cant I have to take care of ethan . He is only 7 if I don't pick up my act and take care of him who will ? Tyler ? I know he is my older brother but you don't understand how much I dislike him . He is so fake so unreal , and even though he has done such stupid shit in his life my mom still decides to trust him regardless of the fact that every time she closes her eyes he does something wrong like mistreating me or my younger brother . Truth is I'm scared . I'm scared of watching ethan grow up by himself ? you know , he is out here raising himself because my family cant keep themselves together , my family is like a puzzle , like someone took a piece of the puzzle and cut it in half and now no matter what it can never go back to the way it was no matter how hard you try at this point its impossible . You feel me ?
" Yea I feel you-ish , kinda . "
" No you don't , you have the perfect little family . "
" No ones family is perfect its just we work things out before they get worst.  "
" You know what I think I might just do that . Tomorrow , do you think your parents would mind if I stay the night ?  "
" Nah , not at all , but you should call your mom make sure they know your safe . "
" Oh please I could be gone for a week and they wouldn't notice . "