Notes

Why do I keep going, there's no point, my tears keep flowing, no matter how hard I try, I end up making myself cry. See, I'm a girl with a mask, It's not that much of a hard task, I hide my real feelings, I keep a fake smile, nobody will notice if I'm gone for a good while. I help people and take on their fears and problems, it slowly pushes down on me, can't you see? I'm just a girl with the a soft heart to help others, I'm the only one that it bothers. Gosh sometimes I feel so low, and I wish to go, I'm a suicidal angel who just wishes to go home, back up there, where everything's fair. I'd get to see all my lost family, I wish I could just believe, I keep trying my best to stay, but I can't keep saying that I'm okay. It's constant, it's everyday, I can't help feeling low....I'm such a failure on everything, I think I should just go. Some people I can't cheer up and It pains me. I'm sorry I'm a disappointment, I never meant to hurt anyone...I just tried making everyone enjoy life and to make it fun. I'm below my worst, this is my curse, I'm always sad, depressed, stressed and I can't live like it anymore, I'm sorry, someday, hopefully soon, I'll be up there where it's starry.