Notes

In this song Sia starts off explaining how she used drugs to hide the pain. "Party girls don't get hurt, can't feel anything when will I learn, I push it down, push it down." Then she states that she threw parties to hope the partying and drinking would make her feel better and so she can feel that bit of appreciation for her throwing a party and try to make herself feel like they actually care. "I'm the one for a good time call, phones blowing up, ringing my doorbell, I feel the love, feel the love." Then she explains how she chugs drink after drink after drink until she's so drunk she can't even remember her last drink. "1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, throw'em back till I lose count." Then she explains how she parties so much and parties like there is no tomorrow and that she gets so high to hide the pain that she's like a bird flying in the dark lonely night and then parties even more. "I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier. I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist, like it doesn't exist. I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry. I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier." Next she says she knows she is in such bad condition and so drunk that she knows she is close to death so she won't look down into the dark abyss of death but she's so addicted to drugs she still won't open her eyes to see all the issues she has and that she needs to stop, and that her addiction is so bad and she is so scared that she thinks that if she keeps her glass full she can finally make it to that morning light and she thinks she can only hold on for that night and that this is a repeated process everyday. "Oh I'm just holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes, keep my glass full until morning light, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, Help me I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes, keep my glass full until morning light, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, on for tonight." Then she says that when the hangover is finally over she sees she has problems and wants to get away from it and that the shame is rising so she just drinks and parties even more to try to hide that shame even though she ends up in the same depressed state. "Sun is up I'm a mess gotta get out now gotta run from this here comes the shame, here comes the shame. 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink, throw'em back till I lose count. I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier. I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist, like it doesn't exist. I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry. I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier. Oh I'm just holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes, keep my glass full until morning light, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, Help me I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down won't open my eyes, keep my glass full until morning light, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, on for tonight, on for tonight, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, oh I'm just holding on for tonight, help me I'm holding on for tonight, on for tonight, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, cause I'm just holding on for tonight, oh I'm just holding on for tonight, on for tonight, on for tonight."