Notes

Hi T, how are you? Doing well? How’s study going? I guess well since I’m not around distracting you… I hope you didn’t caught cold if you did please take care. You know how much courage I make to send you a message and get insulted again and again. I don’t use my phone often just held it to send you this message. I’m on my limits… I don’t talk about myself but for the first time I want to. Do you have any idea what I have gone through? Khana chadta, sona chadta not because I forced myself but because mann hi nahi karda si, I lost myself to the darkness, to the loneliness cause my light which were you decided to walk away. You may think it’s a pagalpan but you think so cause you never found a true lover, a lover who is not attracted by your beauty but of your inner beauty of soul. Tennu lagda hona everything I said back in the days was just to impress you but it’s not the truth everything I said was true. I accept I might have avoided some of my life but the only reason I did was so that you don’t feel bad, you don’t get hurt cause I knew how would you react. You said ..its not a big deal.. but for me it was everything. Main bohot kuch kitta tere vaste that I never mentioned cause my intention was never to show off or impress you, I just wanted to see that smile on your face which makes my day. I faked my smile when we last met just cause I didn’t wanted to see you tensed up. U know kinni kinni khushi hundi he when you ignore me… its like someone shot me in the chest. I still pray for you everyday that please God T di raksha karna, ohda din vadiya jave. U might think that I would have said you bad things yah galiya kadiya honiya but that is not true, my respect towards you never changed. Tu shochdi honi ki main koi hor fasah layi honi, stuff like that par eda kuch nahi hoya meri royalty change nahi hoyi halle vi main kisi wal aakh chak ke vi nahi vekhya. Main pagal halle vi es umid vich betha ki ek din jo tu keha oh sach ho jayega ki kuch salla badh asi fer milanghe; I’m waiting on you please don’t take long… pata nahi main kinni der tak eh kar pava gha… pata nahi tu eh message padhe ghi vi ki nahi yah bina padhe delete kar davenghi. I wish you all the best for your coming tests and exams. Agar main kadevi tere nal koi batmizi kitti hove, yah tennu kisi gaal da burah laga hove I’m really really sorry I say it from deep of my heart that it was never my intention. Take care, eat well, keep smiling and I miss you a lot. With love,
ninnu