Notes

It's been a while since we talked, sorry 'bout that. Hope you are doing well. I gonna be pretty candid here for a bit. But first I'm just gonna say, I have a couple reasons for writing this; (1) I don't want you to think that I had any bad intentions in wanting to meet up before; (2) I need to put this all down and send it so I can stop thinking about it. 

When you first messaged me I was surprised, curious, and a little frustrated. Surprised because it had been well over six months since we last saw each other or spoke; curious because I wanted to know what prompted it; and frustrated because I had up to that point been "over it". I wasn't sure at the time what your relationship status was and I was fine with trying to do just friends. Which might be a weird statement since we were never really anything more than that, but I assumed that's what you wanted. I enjoyed talking/ snapping because its been hard being away from the homies in LA, and so it was nice having someone else to talk to. 

When you said you wanted to hangout, I thought finally I'd be able to get some answers/ closure, to find out what it is you wanted from me and to be done it so I could move on. By that point I knew you are currently seeing someone. You seem happy and I'm happy for the two of you. Honestly that's enough closure for me, but I still at the time wanted to talk in person. We never did meet up. I was a bit disappointed, but it might have been for the best; I think if we spoke in person I wouldn't be able to say the things I wanted to say and things would have been that much harder. After you stood me up (jk no hard feelings) my whole plan to get closure was shot and I didn't know what to do and I didn't want to go further down this "road". So I just didn't say anything. And this letter is the best solution I could come up with that doesn't involve trying to meet up again (cause who knows when that would be).

All that out of the way I have a couple selfish requests. Its bad enough that I know one person has read this, and so I'd appreciate if you didn't share it with anyone (of course I can't stop you though). Second, it'd probably give my mind the most ease if you didn't respond to this (but "k" would be acceptable, as would telling me off).

Sorry this was so long and sorry if any part of this made you uncomfortable or upset, that was not my intention, I just wanted to be honest, 'cause I think everyone could use a little more honesty in their lives.

Couch signing off.