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Emma why we couldn't solve this problem ?

Whenever I see you,I'm thinking like that... "And yea it's Emma... she almost hates me..." this feeling sucks Emma.

And you know what I think I didn't even do anything to deserve that...

Now you will probably say "I don't hate you,I just don't care you" or "Why are you so obsessed with me"

But Emma I would like to remind that,you sent me heart image on the phone,not me... I'm just teasing of course lol,I know that was your friend...

But that means someone thought like that about my intention.And I don't want you to think like that.

That's why I keep saying "please don't get me wrong" and "I just wanna explain myself"

I mean this is not "obsess".You didn't even let me explain to all this happenings.And this situation is bothering me,that's all...

Look you're ignore one thing Emma.I didn't serch like "Emma Marie's phone number/Heather Delucio's phone number".I saw your last name on one of video comments and I just searched your full names for find another contact like personal email or twitter,facebook accounts(Because before that I tried other alternatives like youtube,musical.ly,instagram.)

(Actually I don't use much social media,I opened these accounts just for contact with you guys but I couldn't)

I mean I'didnt expect see your phone numbers or something like that on the internet.But I saw by chance.

Actually to be honest I'm happy about that Emma.Because you know I don't live in there and I can't meet you guys face to face

So It's a good opportunity for me.I mean meet you guys even if just on the phone.Then I called and texted to this numbers.Actually I didn't expect reach you.Because it seemed Heather's.But I only reached you.

And then like I said you only scolded me and blocked.I certainly didn't expect that reaction.I thought you guys will happy about that.But I guess I was completely wrong.

That's why I keep saying "I must explain myself,all I want solve this misunderstanding" because this situation so annoying for me.

So I tried hard to contact with you.But you know,you were only block me again and again,or said angrily "What!?" "What do you want !?" and of course suddenly block again.And it happened,we never communicate correctly...

Look actually I didn't want to tell you.Because this is my trouble.But I guess If I tell you,it will be better and all the happenings begin to make sense.My mom has brest cancer and we learned that three months ago.Maybe you will be remember,on one occasion you shared pink ribbon image and I asked you "What for pink ribbon ?" That's why I asked you and said "Bravo".This was for your awareness.Because I had heard of something about that.

Anyways,when I learned that I felt so bad because two years ago my aunt passed away for same disease.So that period was very difficult for me,I was so demoralized and I couldn't enjoy or happy about anything.Then I met you guys by chance about two week later (while I'm waiting at the hospital) It was initialy seemed strange to me,I had never seen before that type videos.But I kept on watching.Then I noticed that,whenever I watch your videos I feel positive and relaxed.

After that,when I feel sad or bad I watched your videos.And this was continued until now.And now I'm feeling better,cheerful and strong.Look,of course I would have been overcome them without you.But you guys helped me about that in my opinion,and like I said it still being continue.Many people says "You guys made my day" I agree with them but besides that,you were touched and affect my life a little bit.

I know it may sound weird to you.BC It would be same for me,too.But I don't expect you to understand.I just wanted to say I'm appreciate for that.

BTW I also watched some channels after you.But I couldn't warm to them.You and your family have a different energy.I really loved you guys and felt close to myself.You are so positive,hilarious and emotional persons.But I think right and most important word about you "sincere".

And i wanna say again,if I hurt or worried you I'm sorry for that.But I hope I've explained myself completely...

I really loved you Emma but please don't get me wrong(okay this time is last : ) I regard you as a sister....