Notes

Decades:

How hard do I need to look
to find weapons that justify my need for peace
How far must I walk down this road
among dwindling pieces of agony that feed my disease

My naivety serves as sweet justice
dissolving everything I stand upon
evolving all that I pride myself on
over and around my every restraint
the danger is awake
to lie to my brain to remain

Living death,
I long for dreams of reality
where crying is heard over laughter
and I find that my demons infect me

They grow higher than I've seen before
longer than I can percieve
an end to the madness inside of me
is no longer a tale I can believe

A tale I can believe

Oh only now do i see

As I'm coerced into climbing
though my freewill is tiring, I breath
the higher the dream
the greater, the faster it feeds
As though I'm forced into dying
the extent of all I see astounds me

every step recedes abhorently
The trail I'd expected,
reduced to nothing in front of me.
as far as i can see

Can I continue to climb these demons of mine
Will I be deserted in my time

Only now do I see
this journey I constructed in fear
is nothing it was made out to be, it was all a conspiracy

every step recedes abhorently
this winding path is no longer free
and sadly for every stone that I turned to defeat you
every bone that I broke has betrayed me

to fall in line,
the struggle I just can't seem to end
I can't help but defend the upper hand

awake from effortless sleep
I fear i've gone to deep
there's something i've been missing

Clear skies await
upon the realisation of this
my journey diminished by fate
for longer i can climb, this forever line
of misery over time

Only now do I see
this journey I constructed in fear
is nothing it was made out to be, it was all a conspiracy

every step recedes abhorently
this winding path is no longer free
and sadly for every stone that I turned to defeat you
every bone that I broke has betrayed me


Overview: ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

In truth we are fragile, more than we know
In existence we're the futile more than we show

We hang against a backdrop of the infinite.
we're on a vessel in need of a cognitive shift
We're blessed to witness this,
for it will change the very path of our consciousness.

Looking down from the outside, I strain as the glares radiate from a sun in a black sky, alive



Overview, In the haze I see colours
and suddenly it all makes sense
Overview, In the haze I hear a calling

so openly, I see the signs




Our time can seem so much shorter here,
as thin as our degrading lifeline,
disbanded in time.
Detached from being and dreaming, inside
and fall within

Entrusted with the protection of our saviour from the sun,
of this bountiful oasis she's trusted us to uphold.
Keep her from harm as you would your own,

Obeying together, the promise of old

For the gift of life we should be grateful,

Poles apart it's farther from the truth.
For our siblings here can be so hateful,
guiding her to the fatal noose.


Ocean storm clouds swarm around, up here there’s true peace to be found
Dancing curtains of auroras flutter the skies,
a vision of the line where day and night divide
The heavens before us, no separation to ground us

Overview, In the haze I see colours
and suddenly it all makes sense
Overview, In the haze I hear a calling

so openly, I see the signs


You only have to live

Where can we exist?
Just let go

Redeemed: --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


they fled into hell, never thought to return.

we couldn't forget and remain
inevitable

Unable to stand against the demons we faced
we turned to quiet in everyday
almost ashamed of our dismay

angered by whatever we couldn't say
As if there was always another way out

Years passed in our desire
as though time had accelerated around us
abandoned us

through their worn and aged eyes we are found
their salvaging gaze cast deeper underground
An end to the darkness as it was

the fall of pitch black confidence
an end to darkness as it was
but after all the time I could never find
i can not forget where I came from

Redeemed, retrieved
it's only what's missing
is this all that you will recieve
Reawkened, replaced
it's in our convictions
We can't be fallen from grace

For all the time that we were underground
I never thought we could surface
or if we even deserved it
oh why
We cannot stand the silence
you won't be deserted in our time.

life won't be cut short in our eyes
you won't be deserted in our time.

Rediscovered, regained
It could all be meaningless,
A life yet to fulfill
We return, reborn
to shatter the still
through their eyes, aged and worn
we are now found

The Twilight Prison: --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


Impulsively awakened I thrive,
among the minds so abnormal to mine.

Their abrasive lies, forcing me to cross that line.


Their paradise of indifferent awareness
dragged ever further from my grasp.

I long for a second of silence


in this searing temple of fire,

an awful prison in twilight.

alive at night



In every dwindling spire
there's an interior fight



The doors are barred and hell is inside.

As I attempt to hide,
I'm encased.

as if evil had ever felt safe.



My surroundings are bleak
though these notions will find me enslaved.

It won't let me escape.

My body is weak



aahhhh



Face to face I embrace this being
and it's terrible aura unknown

where once was ever sweeter dreams it finds me cold, and alone.


Again
dead inside
and Stolen

Begin

reborn eyes in hoping

Your hands are shaking.

Let me Resurge,

i can shine though your body is aching.

Let yourself die, for I am the light.



I accept, I have lost the fight.



As the everlasting night returns I change.
Swallowed by the darkness, infected .


Falling into the flames of despair
as they flood the halls with terror,

forever they endevour



the blistering might of their power

shown full force in their stature.

for this will never be over

ever be their nature, entombed by their master



heed my words
know my will (I know you will erase me)

you feel my burn
your world will turn


Down paths I could never follow
he speaks to me

lines I could never cross
in daylight, I'm at ease


through every little toil
he weakens me

The spite that he murmurs clothes me in scorn, so embedded that I can't escape.

Ingesting my soul, I wish to be reborn,
to emerge some place in day



falling deep in secrets
my patience wanes

as I attempt to hide I'm encased

as if evil had ever felt safe



The doors are barred, and hell is inside

I've made my choice to die

Taking time to close these eyes
where eternal twighlight goes to thrive