Notes

So your sleeping and im awake and i told you that i would write you a paragraph but you fell asleep on me because you were tired so now im all alone awake and bored but thats okay because after i write this im gonna knock, but i just wanna let you know somethings. Well first of all im really sorry we didn't get to hangout this week. I tried so hard to chill with you babay i really did, you have no idea i fought with my mom and begged her and omg it's just our car don't work in the snow because the tires are really bad or whatever. I tried to find rides but my usual ride person wasnt able to take me anywhere. But i promise this week were gonna be hanging out all week babe im gonna try really hard. Were deffinitly hanging out on our one month and on valentines day. I just feel like a piece of shit girlfriend because we only usually hanout 2 or 3 times a week. When i move it will be better because ill be much closer too you so i will be able to see you more. And another thing i wanna let you know is that im like really sorry for being mean, i know i can be a stuck up snotty bitch but i dont mean it. I dont try to be like that but it just happens and im really sorry for that. Sometimes my attitude just slips out and i dont even know im doing it. But that doesnt mean i love you any less then i do right now. It's just i guess like idk i have an attitude because i feel like people use my niceness for when they need it and when i need them to be nice to me i dont get shit. You are the only person that is nice and that is there for me 24/7, so when im giving attitude i dont mean it, i feel like im a fucking asshole when you call me mean. Okay and another thing, i know that sometimes i say i love you way too much and i notice that, but thats because i really do and i have never ever loved anyone as much as i love you right now. I have never really loved any boy, i mean i have said i love you too people and i thought i meant it, but i didnt. I might have had feelings for people but not like this. I have so many feelings for you. And the way you make me feel idek if it can be explained. You make me feel so happy i almost always want to smile. Seeing you everyday at schoolm brightens up my day and makes it a whole lot better. Even the good morning text you send me, waking up to"gm beautiful" is the best feeling in the world because i know that you feel the same about me and that im not in this alone. I want you too know ill always be here for you. And i know you said you've never gotten depressesd but still im here for you. Even if your sad i wont think you a "little bitch" for being sad about something because everyone gets sad sometimes. I will always be here for you, i will always be on your side, i will always have your back, I always got you baby no matter what. Your the best thing, and i really mean the best thing that has ever happend to me in my whole entire life. Yes i know people say this all the time but no i really mean it. No one else can put a smile on my face by them just looking at me. No one else can hug me and make me feel so loved. When we hug i feel like im in the safest place and i feel like you really care, actually i know you really care. I trust you with everything inside me. I don't ever let anyone in and tell them about my whole life, but babe you know everything. You know how insicure i am, you know how my family is, you know how my childhood was, you know why i get jelous, you know why im scared of certian things, you just know everything. And i wouldnt just tell anyone these thing but i knew from the begning i could trust you. We may have only been dating for like 3 weeks now but i feel like we have been together for years and like odviously i know it doesnt feel that long but i mean it feels like our relationship has been going on for that long, because usually people when they first get into a relationship they dont develope this much feelings for someone but honestly this is the most feelings ive ever had for anyone in my entire life. Oh yes and i wanted to let you know that your the most handsome boy in the whole enitre universe. You may not think so but i do. I think that when i look at you it's not just your face that is perfect but it's just you. Your eyes your lips your nose your body your hands your hair your personality you. Thats what is so perfect, you. And people ask me why i like you and it's simple. You have always been there for me nmw even when we were fighting. You never switched up on me not once and told anyone my shit. You even though you made a mistake before you fixed it just to be with me. Your hansome, your sweet, your nice, your funny, and most of all you love me. So people ask me why i like you, its just that simple. And the last thing i wanna tell you is that you mean so much to me and i care about you soo much. So you mean so much to me that im always thinking about you, every second of everyday. No matter what is going on im always thinking in my head "mikey" In school when were learning something im always like "i wonder if mikey understands this" and then i start thinkging "he is so perfect how am i so luck to have him" and then the bell rings and im like "i gotta hurry up so i can walk with mikey in the hallway" and when were holding hands im like "omg i love him so much". Loll and i care about you soo much becuase whenever your mad about something and people ask if your mad i get like all nervous because i know when people ask that it gets you even more mad. I care about you mikey so dont ever think i do because i really do. Even if im being a bitch or giving attitude or saying something mean just know i still care. Well i probly wasted like 5 minuets of your time so you could read this huge ass paragraph but i just really needed to tell you all of this. So goodmorning handsome, I love you so muchhh!!