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NOT A DAY GOES BY WHERE MY MIND DOESNT HAVE YOU IN IT. ITS BEEN 6 YEARS AND YET WERE STILL HAVING HIGH SCHOOL ISSUES . SEBASTIAN IM OUTGOING ATHLETIC I LOVE MAKING NEW FRIENDS I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE IVE ALWAYS BEEN PRETTY GOOD AT THAT. IM A UNIQUE PERSON MY PARNETS MY FRIENDS MY TEACHERS HAVE ALWAYS TOLD ME YOUR GOING TO MAKE IT FAR IN LIFE BECAUSE OF THE PERSON YOU ARE. IVE ALWAYS TALKED ABOUT LIVING THE COLLEGE LIFE AND GOING OUT PARTYING THEN HAVING 3 HOURS OF SLEEP THEN WAKING UP FOR CLASS AND GOING ABOUT MY DAY I WANT TO ENJOY MY LIFE THE BEST WAY I CAN WITH FRIENDS YOU FAMILY EVERYBODY YOU ALWAYS COMPLAIN ABOUT ME DRINKING AND GOING OUT WELL SEBASTIAN IM 21 AMOST 22 THIS IS THE PART OF MY LIFE WHERE I SHOULD BE HAVING FUN AND LIVING IT TO THE FULLEST IM A CRAZY CHICK SO IVE BEEN TOLD BEING WITH YOU IS LIKE 2 SIDES OF ME I FEEL LIKE ME EXPRESSING MYSELF OR ACTING THE WAY I DO WITH MY FRIENDS IS NOT POSSIBLE WITH YOU IVE FOCUSED SO HARD ON TRYING TO BE THE GIRL FOR YOU AND NOT FOCUSING ON ME AND NOT BEING MYSELF I WANA BE ABLE TO GO OUT HAVE DRINKS WITH MY FRIENDS AND STILL BE ABLE TO CALL U AT THE END OF THE NIGHT AND SAY BABE IM HOME I LOVE U GOODNIGHT AND U DO THE SAME WHY CANT THINGS BE THAT WAY ? IT AMAZES ME HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND YET Y IM AFRAID TO TELL YOU WHERE IM GOING AND WHO IM WITH AND NOT BECAUSE IM CHEATING ON YOU BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS JUDGE ME YOU NEVER GAVE ME CHANCE TO BE ME YOU CAN SAY OTHERWISE BUT ITS TRUE YOU NO Y JASMIN DOESNT LIKE YOU BECAUSE SHE DOESNT LIKE THE FACT THAT I CANT BE MYSELF WITHOUT U GETTING UPSET OR ARUGING WITH ME I JUST WANNA ENJOY MY FRIENDS WITHOUT YOU GETTING UPSET AT EVERY LITTLE THING YES I HANGOUT WITH MY FRIENDS WHEN UR GONE THATS TRUE BUT Y BECAUSE I DONT HAVE YOU HERE BECAUSE IM NOT GOING TO SIT IN MY ROOM CRY AND WAIT UNTIL YOU COME BACK IVE SEEN FRIENDS WHO DO THAT AND NOW HAVE NO LIFE AND THERE RELATIONSHIP SUCKS OUR PROBLEM IS I CANT BE TRULY BEMYSELF AND ITS SUCKS BECAUSE I CAN BE THAT GIRL THAT GOES WITH HER FRIENDS ENJOYS NIGHTS OUT AND BE THAT GO THAT COMES BACK TO HER BOYFRIEND OR HUSBAND I CAN BE THAT GIRL TOO WERE YOUNG I DONT WANNA GROW UP TO FAST YES 6 YEARS IS ALOT OF TIME FOR YOU AND ME BUT REMEBER WERE ONLY 21 22 IM SRY THT MARRIGE IS NOT ALWAYS ON MY MIND OR KIDS BUT IM JUST NOT READY FOR THAT RIGHT NOW 23 24 YES MAYBE BUT I KINDA WANNA TRAVEL AND ENJOY LIFE BEFORE I SETTLE DOWN AND HAVE KIDS I WANNA MARRY YOU SEBASTIAN BUT I ALWAYS WANNA HAVE FRIENDS AT THE WEDDING THERE THE ONES THAT KEEP ME GOING WHEN UR NOT HERE GUYS UR GIRLS I NO WHO IM AROUND AND I NO WHEN SOMETHINGS NOT RIGHT SO WHAT EVER YOU THINK ABOUT MY GUY FRIENDS OR GIRLS STOP BECAUSE UR WRONG I JUST WANNA HAVE FUN LIVE LIFE AND HAVE YOU WHATS SO HARD ABOUT THAT? PLEASE JUST THINK ABOUT THINGS AND TAKE THESE NEXT FEW DAYS I NO I WANT YOU BUT I ALSO WANNA BE ABLE TO GO OUT AND NOT HAVE YOU COMPLAIN OR NOT TRUST ME BECAUSE I NO WHAT IM DOING AND I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO PUT MYSELF IN A POSITION WHERE IM CLUENESS