Notes

Dear Kosaru,
I didn't have time to hand write this or print it, so I thought this would be the best way to write you a letter for when I'm in China. I am going to miss you SOOO MUCH. I get kinda bummed when I don't see you for a day; I don't even know how I'll handle not seeing you for 9 weeks. Here is the link to my travel journal: http://my.eftours.com/alexandert12/china-beijing-xian-and-shanghai?utm_source=page&utm_medium=site&utm_campaign=sharing . Please check that when you can. I'll be doing my best to update that during the trip. I'll even post when I'm open to Skype people. I would love to Skype you from our hotel room.
If you start to miss me, just read this letter! Cause I'm going to tell you: I love you!! I really mean it when I say it. You're like family to me. Our friendship is priceless and very special to me. You have changed the person that I am for the better. You told me recently that I did the same for you and even though I can't imagine how I did so, it makes me very happy that I've been able to help you that way. I want to help you in any way I can. I'd feel selfish if I didn't return favors.
Because of my dad, I feel very unimportant as a person, but when you say nice things about me and say how you care about me, it makes me feel special and happy that I am important to someone. I hope I'm able to make you feel cared for and loved the way you do for me.
Everyone has problems. It just matters how you deal with it. It amazes me how well you do. You're an amazing person with no serious flaws that I can see. Small flaws are very endearing I think.
It's really nice that we're able to tell each other stuff like this, but be nothing more than close friends. It makes me feel lucky that I have someone to share this kind of friendship with. I really hope you feel the same way.
I noticed that I don't tell you this often (probably cause it may come off the wrong way), but I think that you're a very beautiful girl. I mean that in the most platonic way I can. I actually doubt you know what that means....no offense....but I don't know another word to describe it, so platonic means: '(of love or friendship (in this case, friendship)) Intimate and affectionate but not sexual.' There you go! You learn something new everyday, right?! (I apologize if I underestimated you and you actually knew what that meant, but I just expect you not to.) I hope you consider it appropriate to say that I think you're pretty, lol. I just think it's nice to hear from others.
Wow, I just went on a whole paragraph trying to make that seem appropriate to say to a friend. I really could have shortened that to a sentence. OH WELL. Just let the length of this letter represent a long conversation. It's a lot more fun if you imagine me actually reading this out loud (with my actual voice, not you're and most other's weird imitation of the deepness of my voice -_-).
Now you won't get so lonely when you realize that one of the people you love the most in this world is on the other side of the planet with almost no way to contact you directly in any other way than this previously written letter and how this is almost all you have of me. Jus' sayin'.
But seriously, don't miss me. If I know that you miss me on the trip, I'll miss you more. That probably applies to you too, so I'll try not to miss you for your sake. We can both just think of how much fun I'm having and the stories I'll have to tell you when I get back. You're seriously going to have to come over and hang out FO' REAL on a weekend soon. It'd be fun for you to spend the night too. I really like staying up and talking with you. And because this idea has been floating around for so long, it's not even that you should maybe come over and hang out.......IT THAT YOU NEEEED TO COME OVER AND HANG OUT. Jus' sayin'.
Man, if I accidentally deleted this letter, I would be so mad.
Well anyway, even though you aren't looking forward to your own spring break, I think that you'll end up having a lot of fun despite the negative bits of what you're going to do. At least, I hope you do. I can imagine that you'll still tell me positive stories of what's going to happen. If you're not enjoying yourself, just think of how much Alex loves you!!!
It is 12 am the night before I leave for China. And Caleb and I don't plan on going to sleep until 10 am on Saturday. I am f**king insane to not go to sleep early. I'll be up for more than 24 hours tomorrow, and I'm planning on getting less than 6 hours of sleep to prepare. I'm a mess. I developed these weird lines next to my eyes from not getting enough sleep. I'm worrying myself. You need to get more sleep too though! And as your face is still pretty, your lack of sleep shows in your eyes! I get worried when you're all like swaying around at school from sleepiness.
Well the point of the last paragraph is that I should go to sleep now. I love you so much!!! If I could attach a hug to this letter, I would, lol. I hope you don't die from Alex withdraw. I have medication to help me deal with Kosaru withdraw just to be safe.
Love, Alex

p.s. I apologize if the length of this letter bothers you. You're welcome if you find it comforting.-text hug-