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I hate the person I've became. A bitch, a hoe, a bad person... I really just wanna go away and forget all the stupid things I've done. I'm not going to cut myself but... Idk, it hurts so much.
it feels like nobody cares about me or my feelings anymore. In one day, 3 people hurt me... I feel like shit. I am shit. Maybe I just need to be alone for a few time... or maybe even forever.
It all started when I was moving to 7th grade... the depressions started coming. I never felt this way before. I never felt like shit. And maybe that's why it hurts so bad... I'm not used to it. Well, I wasn't... I feel devastated. Honestly if today was my last day in here, nobody would even notice but my 4 best friends. Some people don't know me and call me fake. Seriously though?! I've been searching for flies to Canada... don't really know what to do. Crying has became a hobbie. Feeling alone has became a hobbie. Feeling like shit, I've not always been it. But now, it's just what I am.
The problem of looking strong, is that nobody can "really" help me. Yeah, it's truth that my closest friends help me but I end up getting worse everytime.
My life has became what I was not expecting. I've became what I was not expecting...
I try to be happy but it's too much to handle.
It's like people stay happy for seeing me bad, sad and broken.
The worst part is that when a problem comes, it never comes alone. It comes with 2 or 3 with it. And I don't really talk about it with my friends because I don't want them o think that I'm exagerating or just doing it for he spotlight... People think that about me all he time. They say I'm cocky, they say I'm rude, they say I'm everything bad. And me? I honestly don't give a fuck about what people think about me. I care about what I think about me. And it's almost never a good thing.
My boy best friend called me bipolar. Well, maybe I am. Maybe I'm not. Who knows?
My girl best friend basiclly cheated on me. Does she no care about me? Obviously she does. But rarely she doesn't really know how to demostrate that.
And now I look at all of that and think that I really must go away. FOREVER.
I've good friendships. I've great friendships. And then I have the best relatioships someone could have. My two sisters and my girl and boy best friends... They're the greatest things that happened to me. I couldn't be more thankful for that. If I really decide to go, they're OBVIOUSLY who I'm gonna miss the most. I LOVE THEM.
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