Notes

Mom: I'm sorry for causing you so much stress, pain and making your life that
much harder. I'm sorry I'm too dumb to comprehend that I'm not the only one
and that there are so many teens/girls going through everything that I'm going
through. I'm sorry for being so dramatic and making a big deal out of every
little thing. I'm sorry for wasting so much of your money and I'm sorry for not
talking to you about anything. I just couldn't bear knowing you have to worry
about such irrelevant shit. Yes, I swear. I swear up a storm when your not
around. I'm also bisexual. And make fun of me all you want, and tell me how
I'm still too young to know for sure but I know I am for a fact. Don't mourn
my death too much. Don't waste your time. Don't spend much money on my
funeral. It's not worth it. Please, keep moving forward. None of this is your
fault, don't let me hold you back. There was nothing you could say or do that
would have stopped me. Forget I ever existed, it's for the best. I was a horrible
person, you didn't even know it. So, laugh, work hard, fall in love, anything,
just don't waste any time because of me. Mourning me will do nothing. Keep
your head held high and keep moving forward. There's no other way. P.S. Sorry
for always talking too much.

Dad: I feel like a burden. Like I'm something you reluctantly take care of. You always zone out and seem to always be in your own world. I don't know whats gotten into you. I wish I could unsee the things I've found in your camera roll. You need time to find yourself. The things I've found on your youtube history aren't helping your case. You really need to mature. (But that's ok, studies found that men fully mature around the age of 43) Keep moving forward. Live your life to the fullest. A few small set backs shouldn't make you give up completely. Don't be me. It's never too late to become what you want. I don't blame you for anything, it's not your fault so sorry if that's how I sound like. P.S. Sorry that I could never shut up.

June: I'm dead now. Are you happy? You probably can't really comprehend whats going on. They're probably hiding my death from you, the same way they hid the break up between mami and papi. But it's ok right? I mean you've told me repeatedly to kill myself so I did. Happy now? I hope one day you realize how much one persons words can weigh onto someone shoulders, mood. But don't worry, I don't blame you for anything. I blame myself. Your my brother. I should have set you onto the right path. Not lead you into the one I was stuck on. I'm sorry for making you into a slightly different version than me. And that's ok becuase your still young. You can make something out of yourself.

Max: Did you hate me? I could never tell. I feel like you were apart of this huge plan to make a fool out of me. It's ok though, I deserved it. I'm sorry I always talked about myself and always made things about me. And if you did tell your sister that you and I were barely even friends, that's ok, I understand. I'm not easy to talk to and I'm super socially awkward. I could never have made my way into this world. I know you must have SOMETHING to worry about. I'm sure your hiding that from the rest of the world, too scared to look weak. Maybe it even had something to do with your old school. And if I'm wrong, well, then your lucky. And it's ok to love a calm life, it's not selfish.

Samantha: I hope your not the self obsessed person everyone thinks you are. I really hope you are some-what mature and I hope that your bad actions had a good explanation behind them. I hope you can find yourself and can change your reputation.

Sarah: I don't know what's been on your mind lately. I guess now I'll never know. Be strong, Sarah. You are beautiful, unique with a jar full of weird. But who said being weird was a bad thing? I hope you can get through whatever it is that your going through. I hope things between you and your mom will get better. Hold onto your dad, he's the best one there is. He truly cares about you, let him you care as well. Don't let my death hold a burden over you. I'm not worth it. You need to put one foot in front of the other and make yourself the best version of yourself. This wasn't your fault, so don't blame yourself. There was nothing you could do. And before you start thinking about how you should have said something when I told you I cut, you didn't do anything wrong. You were being the best friend anyone could have asked for. I told you not to tell anyone, and you didn't. That's loyalty, Sarah. Loyalty. Please, don't let anything hold you back from your dreams. You have a whole lifetime in front of you. And as always, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be there. Talk to me, the way you would talk to God. I swear I'll listen. P.S. Sorry for always talking about myself.

Rodrick.: I remember I used to have a crush on you in the 2nd and 3rd grade. I'm proud to say this because, although I don't feel that way about you anymore, I admire you. I admire your unique personality and, as weird as it sounds, I see you as a son. I'm so taken aback by how you've matured over the years. You are an amazing writer and I wish you luck on your future. I know you'll make it big one day.

Abigail: Yesterday ocean under. Ark round east. Temper over on. Smell maple altitude right today. Forever or rest. Sample cool hide or on ledge.

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