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Hey so I didn't want to say this over messenger but we haven't really talked a lot for the last couple weeks and it's been stressing me out quite a bit. If you didn't already know, I care about you. A lot. I wouldn't still be talking to you, an ocean away, if I didn't. I have some pretty serious feelings for you and I can't tell how you feel about me. I am terrified that you don't feel the same way I do. Sometimes I think you do feel the same way, and then other times I don't. Last time I mentioned that you weren't talking as much you put in a tonne of effort to talk to me more and I appreciated it so much. Since you last went to sea and came back it has felt like you've been avoiding me. And that has really been difficult for me because I really enjoy talking to you. I know you have a lot going on at the moment, with the dogs, and the house situation, and other stresses, and I don't want to add to it. I just want you to know how I feel because obviously you can't read my mind and you can't know how I feel if I don't tell you. I can't say it over the phone because I have a lot of issues with opening up about how I feel to people. But I have to send it instead of wondering.