Notes

Road to Recovery

Being depressed is not easy to deal with, it completely changes your perception of everything in your life. To be not depressed is to lift the veil of negativity that holds you back from living. It contains all of the negative emotions such as sadness, fear and anger. It is hard to lift the veil, but once it is lifted and you get a peak of life without these emotions, you realize how pointless wearing that veil truly is, and how beautiful life is when you look at it through the spectrum of appreciation, excitement, and awe. To not be depressed is to not let these emotions consume your life, and choosing to instead focus on positivity. Every day was a fight against negative thought. For me, I found that being more involved and healthy helped, as well as clearing my mind when I find I am being consumed by thought. I also write in my notes to sort out my feelings during times when I am feeling a negative emotion such as fear, anger and sadness. I still feel all of these emotions, but I am not depressed because I have found strategies to help me recover from them. In the past I wrote depressing paragraphs about how I felt and that I had no hope in life. I never really listened to the advice my friends gave me. Yes, I’m still a little dysfunctional, but now I know that I have hope and I am burning blue 💙