Notes

9/1/13

Today has been up and down. I am still struggling with enjoying the people I meet. I like hanging out with Andrew, James and Cam. We don't quite have as many laughs as I would have hoped but they are super nice people. I like hanging out with Evan and Mike they are really cool guys I'm just not sure if they are as close to me as they are to each other. I sometimes worry about meeting the right people. Hopefully that isn't a problem I have to deal with. I know GOD is there for me. I have become such a better person over this week. I understand all the things GOD is doing in my life and that it could take time to develop these friendships. I am just keeping my eyes on GOD as I go through this tough transition. He is carrying me through. I will never allow myself to expect better anymore. I know that anything that needs to get better is something I have to deal with myself through Christ. I am missing my mom more and more as I've been here. She would be so great to talk to but I know I have so many others in my life who love me so there is no reason to worry. I do need to look into getting involved in a group or maybe just talk to someone from church bacl home. It has overall been one of the hardest and best weeks of my life. I can't wait to look back and see how much I grow every week. There have been so many great things that out weigh the bad. All the fraternities have been awesome if I do decide to do that. I want it tyo be something I can help lead people to Christ in and through. That is the main goal. I am making a promise right now to never drink during rush or during my sophomore year around my fraternity brothers. If that means I can't be in Kappa Sig or KOT then that's what I'll have to do. I have really liked KOT so far. A lot of the guys are crazy but I know it is an enviornment I could enter with a Christian attitude and not compromise myself as long as I stay following after GOD morning noon and night and anytime I get a chance to worship and thank him and let him know about the struggles in my life. I feel like I may have heard from GOD about Connor Kane as a close friend for the future. I feel like I have a strong feeling in my spirit about him. Just like I did about Geoff and then about Kristian. I have a lot in common with him so hopefully he also shares my values in Christ. I really thank God for allowing me go have a crazy time last night with Sheilds and all her friends. They are crazy and fun people. I felt led to do that last night. Tonight is the ZZZ party and I want to go. I was planning to go with Andrew and James so we'll see what happens. Talking with Clayton the other night was a blast. Evan is one funny kid. Also I had a great time meeting KOTs at late night. I probably need to go check out Phi Chi again. Running the Baylor line for the first time was a blast. I can believe I'm here honestly. It was a really cool experience.

Goal for the week: get closer Cam, Andrew and James, get to know Connor, study, pray a lot, become more confident in myself, show the love of GOD to others as I meet them, meet someone to talk to about my mom, talk to Dad, talk to Jul, talk to Claudia, talk to Jon, talk to Julie, serve GOD!!!

ENJOY MY SELF IN EVERYTHING I DO!!!
ENJOY MEETING OTHERS!!!!