Notes

To my cotton candy.

Dear Aleena,
First I'm thankful for our meeting because that's the only thing we can remember as our first moment. That we became so close like this right now. I thank God for that.

I'm thankful for having a -cold outside but cute and soft inside- sister like you, (teehee) I'm writing thiswith sincere feelings no other purpose, I'm trully writing this with a sister's heart.

I got this sudden thought this morning that I have changed for a reason but I accidentally not noticing it til now, you probably know why, problem and stuffs, and I hope you can accept I am who I am today and next day and the other next day.

Because I'm still facing it, the way I'm becoming myself, I'm still feeling what's myself exactly become in the future,
that there's no late for people to facing it. Well, we know everyone will do. I really hope you don't mind with that, you can bear with me even I know I'm suck sometimes for being a sister, I'm also learning about you, Aleena, I'm trying to be the best sister you could have not in the world but I want you to think that someday you're grateful for meeting me.
I just don't wanna smoothly regret anything
once I reminded it.

I'm sorry for being suck sometimes, I'm sorry if I happened to offend your feelings, I'm sorry if I happened rude to you, not understanding your feelings or what you're doing, etc.
Just please accept my apologies? It's for my own composure.

Past is the past and I'm trying to stood by myself, not a big one but stood for something I can tell myself to be okay temporarily until I can gain the strength again, and I'm figuring it all, you know, everything.

I like the cheerful you, to be honest. People's cheerfulness can easily affects me and all my mood in sudden ahaha. But doesn't mean I hate the quiet and reserved you and prefer you to change to be the you know person. You're a good listener though you aren't expressing it in text, I know in depth you understand my sadness and also happiness. I often got insecure if you're start to not replying, I'm sorry that's my bad. I'm just afraid of people leaving me cuz I have nobody behind my back already. You're also smart, I admit I'm jealous. (grins in good way) I'm proud of you. People are proud of you.

Worry not you can bother me, Aleena. Tell me story about your friends. Tell me story about your class, trip, share me anything. Since I don't have any feeds to be fed. I'm not as close as a boyfriend but sister, consider me as mom's second generation. ( ? ) that'll listen to everything you said.

That's it I guess, I'm sorry for the sudden long essay I made this morning, hope you can read and feel my sincerest. 😋❤
We sure need to gift each other often from now on, yeah?

Sincerely your sister,

Ellena J. Rowen.