Notes

You see i, keep having flashbacks to the day my daddy left me, I remember him telling me why he was leaving me,he was crying on my shoulder, "You gotta fly on your own now darlingg" do you remember me holding your hand daddy? all he wanted was to be away and hiding from the mistakes, how did i let him leave ME! please! it was all my fault! since the day I let him leave me, It was silly to think that he actually loved me, spending money on me? that was the only thing he did spend on me... not his time only doing bad crimes! he only cared about his wife, and the wine... not the daughter that was crying, had no money! no we to go, no child support all the money you owed to mumma! He lied to her face such a disgrace. how could she have ever forgotten. don't worry father! I am not okay! you made me feel like i was the one who made the mistakes.... you ow me so much daddy, not once did i hurt your feelings! i only protected you and kept you from harm. you know my mum! thought you were the daddy i had dreams about, woke up crying and crying only knowing you weren't there anymore to be by my side, mumma had spend every cent she had made, everything she owned! you had everything over there, apart from me you didn't care about me! that was probably the last thing on your mind! you got cha girlfriend to buy me the present "how did you know?" i only wanted your time daddy. i thought you were the best dad, guess i was abit wrong about that. i have a family that would do anything for me, and the children, i get bummed by them sometimes haha. theres so much you don't know about me. you think that im a good kid, you knew nothing since the day yuh left me. and ma mumma we were so disspapointed in you, you only were there for a few years, then took care of your new girlfend who lives so far away you hid things from me and lied to my face did you know i got a trec pass from the ware house? well no you dont actually know the only things you know was from when i was about six years old! will you be with me when i am old? should of thought about that when you were here by my side, cant cry on your shoulde no moe, no more tears wipe them away, and take back to the day... you were on the couch watching movies with me being atlest more of a success then you are now! try harder fight for the one you love, i hope that one is me not your other new girlfriend. take care of yourself maybe one day ill vsit you, if your not playing games with my head, telling me youd pay? neve happened :/ i lvoe you daddy dont make the same mistake soon youll loose everything you ever made and the things that had made you.